Wake Up

Sometimes I don't like this Earth, I'm
Sick of life so I write this verse
And what my mom don't get is that I'm dying inside that's why I light those herbs
I wish that maybe, I didn't have to write those words
Wish I could fight those words
Wish I could fight that urge to grab a knife and hurt myself
But you see when your whole life is dark, you would think the light came first
But it didn't in my case, you would feel the same if you were living in my place
Fake family, fake friends, same end
I used to blame them for all the things they've taken
But if I take my life, what they gonna take then?
I don't have much else, police took my vape pen
The feelings getting worse so I try and save them
But I just go deeper and deeper, that's why I write and say death

I'm sipping on this drink, ain't no grass to burn
I'm taking all these pills, ain't no grass to burn
Do you know how it feel when no grass to burn
Your sun don't shine, I guess I have to learn

And sometimes I don't wanna live
And at the same time I wonder where my father is and why I'm fatherless and why God won't listen
You see, I don't think I even believe anymore
I'm sick of facing L's I'm tryna even the score
But I can't seem to ignore that I'm not me anymore
I'm not the me from before, can't even sleep anymore
Don't even dream anymore, can't even think anymore

And while I'm chasing, my time's wasting
I should'a played ball, man I could'a made Varsity
And of-course t's hard for me to explain that music's more than art to me
It's an escape from the pain within my arteries
(Cliché as fuck) I know it sounds cliché but if you've seen my days
I think you'll start to see I'm getting closer to the light
I've already seen what the dark can bring

And that's just real shit
That is just real shit