In The End / Things Change

Popping painkillers, hope it kills the pain that's slowly kills my brains so I won't feel the pain

I don't wanna live this way, pistol placed to hit my face
Grip the blade but miss my veins, Fuck this rage
Fuck these fakes, fuck these snakes, fuck this blame
I rip this J, sip this rain, I'm in this thing till I'm in this grave
Should I end my life?, It could end today
And it could end tonight if I end it like

Thoughts so dark but these pills so white
Tryna live fast on a real slow night
Know that it's wrong but it feels so right
So right, so right
Thoughts so dark but these pills so white
Tryna live fast on a real slow night
Know that it's wrong but it feels so right
So right, so right feel

Oh so right while my flows Snow White
Smoke dope then flow to these stone cold skies filled with stone cold lies, then I'm shown that the chrome isn't oh so wise
But sometimes I wanna blow my mind
So I hold the .9, let it go, turn ghost and die
See my soul arise cause I'm over lies and I'm over life

Well let me tell you what I want from this
I just wanna keep my promises, gain accomplishments so I can forget all this shit
I just wanna feel okay
I don't wanna feel the pain
I just wanna feel the day
I don't wanna feel the rain

Cause what I'm feeling, I know the feelings I made myself
With all my problems, all of which I gave myself
Wish I could save myself but I can never change myself
Cause if I change myself I'll never be my greatest self
I should thank myself but I don't think I've done that much
For myself besides not picking up that gun
Cause fuck that guns and what can guns do for me
(???) I don't feel loved that much
And I remember feeling left out
I started writing to keep me from feeling left out
Pass it right, leave the fakes and the left out
Pass it back, keep the fakes and the rest out
But, I'm running out of energy
Matter fact, I think I'm running out of memories
So I'm sorry for everything, shout out to Emily
And in the end, I just hope that you remember me

I just hope that you remember me, yeah
And in the end, I just hope that you remember me
I just hope that you remember me
And in the end, I just hope that you remember me