Stuck / In My Dreams

I can't believe I said all these words, now I come to find that they don't mean shit
I can't believe I wasted all this time, now I come to find that you don't get
How much I like you
Tell me what you want, what you need, how you feel?
Tell me what you think, how I seem, what you see when you sleep, what's your dream, baby, I can make it real?
But she don't need me like that
I wonder why cause you don't see me like that
Is it cause I like to light wax
Lie back, get high, and write tracks while the night's black?
You bring light to my black mind
And I know you're heartless so you can have mine
But I forgot you don't want it till I'm wanted and not when I'm started from down at the bottom

Don't come around me when the flow get known
Don't come around me when the shows gets sold
Cause no hoe gets known for fucking over me just to blow my bros

But you want a hashtag 'real one'
Well that's true in a sense cause you make wanna go and get a real gun
Put it to my head, keep my thrills up
Pop a pill, kill the pain till I feel none

All the words I had to say, they don't mean nothing to you

Sometimes I wonder why do I stress so much and hold my breath so much?
I don't need a TEC to bust cause my pen could bust at any kid steppin' to me like my pen was bust
But I'm not feeling it, I'm not feeling it
I'm in a slump so I clutch the pump and dump on punks and cunts that would laugh at lunch
So today I'm not having lunch, cause guess what? today I didn't pack a lunch
I just packed a punch filled with gats and guns
I'm gonna have some fun and watch you bastards run

I start walking down the hall and I just had to run into this girl that I like, she's like
Ten outta ten, she's standing next to her friends
So I stop cause I'm having second thoughts and start remembering when
I first met her and sent her some rhymes to try and impress her
And then around December is when I started feeling her
Now it's almost a year later and I'm seconds from killing her

When will I learn, I can never fulfil this urge
And me and her together never will occur?
So I decide to slide the clip inside the .9, leave 35 to die and she'll be number *Thirty Six*
As tears drip, she clicks her heels in then begs she's not sent to where her peers went but
You see, I've contemplated suicide
Wish it could be you and I, but I guess it's do or die
And who am I, just another stupid guy who's frozen cause he's hoping that she'll slow him down and choose his side
And I remember that I waved at her the other day
Too bad she looked the other way