Two Eight One

I was standing on the corner between Main Street and Pine
And I thought I saw your ghost, but it was really just mine
So let me crawl into your skin for a minute
I promise I'll leave when I learn what love is
I never meant to be the problem
But I also never thought I'd be your purpose
'Cause these night terrors can't find me
When I refuse to fall asleep

Cold breeze weakens my immune system
As I continue to walk down the street
And I saw a vision of me walking
Holding the hand of a beautiful child
The child had your eyes and she also had my smile
And in that moment, she was the only girl I could love as much as you

And the weakening reality of this measure
Began to erode the hope I had of feeling alive
So I adopted complacency
The world took all of our dreams and let fear set in
So the only way to drown it out was to not feel anything

But I ask you, please save songs for me and my bride to sing
For when we decide that the time is right
Save songs for me and my bride to sing
For when we decide to fall asleep
But until then, I guess I'll just keep walking

When I have nothing to think about
My mind either wanders into
Remembering how much I love holding you tight
Or some nights, I just dive into a monologue in my own mind
Arguing through theology, and when I felt completely lonely
I ventured into a new part of life, saying to myself

We all worship a God who already taught us how to die
And would he do it again if he knew that I was going to be alive?
'Cause I get on my knees to feel closer to the sky
And I take my many blessings and then I kiss them goodbye

'Cause I have this habit of being selfish
And blaming my shortcomings on just being a habit
But I love it because it's convenient
And I keep saying I'm gonna change
But until then, I guess I'll just keep walking

And I remember the moment I destroyed everything I loved
Just to find out that I had no idea what love was
And the conformity that came with materialistic ambitions
Reduced my heart to nothing more than a target for depression
When no product is for luxury, but now just a cure for depression
I turned my back on her, hoping I could find a new solution

And I keep walking, and the wind picks up
And I keep walking, and I miss my love
And I keep walking, and I keep asking
Save songs for me and my bride to sing
For when we decide that the time is right
Save songs for me and my bride to sing
For when we decide to fall asleep

'Cause a gust of wind knocks me off my feet
But doesn't seem to affect a single man made building
I guess sometimes we are weaker than what we create
So what does that say about our love and our hate?
Maybe nothing, maybe everything
Maybe I'm wrong, just save something for me