Trauma

[Intro: [?]]
Psychological trauma can be defined as a negative event
So overwhelming that we cannot properly understand
Process and move on from it, but, and this is the devilish aspect of it
Nor can we properly remember it or reflect upon its nature and its effects on us
It is launched within in us, but remains hidden from us
Making its presence known only by symptoms and pains
Altering our sense of reality without alerting us to its devilish, subterranean operations

[Verse 1: Bumps INF]
Uh, still I'm dealing with the trauma, baby
Uh, I'm a product of a mom that raised me
Uh, where every substance was abused
And despite stuff that they was using
I still felt love, oh, the confusion (Confusion)
Here's all my soul, trying to picture it, listening close
You would get that it's not even sensitive
It's either missing or rigid and cold
Whoa, I remember nights where I had to stay locked in my room
I can hear screaming and all I was thinking
"Man, if you kill my momma, I'm doomed" (Doomed)
Uh, not even aware that I'm barely nine and felt paralyzed
So terrified, got me too scared to hide, so I sit there and cry
It's there, my minds gripped by fear and unaware if they're alive
And if she's not, then where would I live in event that my parent died?
Uh, off with a child that he shouldn't even have
Crazy to think, but most of my life I thought my childhood wasn't even bad
Uh, that was normal to me, sure way before that the Lord intervened
But the horrible things I was forced into seeing to apportionately had to warp how I think
Uh, unsure they'd agree that they most definitely distorted some things
The lingering affects and the season that I'm stressed
Be the reasons that a storm were to pour me a drink
Unfortunately, we at war with the things that are sort of unseen
Pause, there is more to it, but it's too short to get what he reports in the form of a scheme
Bumpy

[Interlude: [?]]
Unsurprisingly, a lot of psychological trauma happens in childhood
Children are especially vulnerable to being traumatized
Because they are congenitally unable to understand themselves
Or the world very well

[Verse 2: Fern]
All I feel is trauma, uh, all I see is trauma, ooh
Everybody going through it at the same time drama
Huh, at the same time drama (Sheesh)
Trying to stay away from the prison, your honor
I got a few wrongs, I'm trying to make right (Right)
I feel hold down, I'm trying to take flight (Ugh)
I'm a break free over trying to break night, at the same time got to make mine (Got a make mine, got a make mine)
I can entertain a thought without accepting it at all (At all, at all)
It's the pledge that we made when we promised the ball (When we promised the ball, when we promised the ball)
Never once did we think that we'd ever would fall (That we'd ever would fall, that we'd ever would fall)
The difference is that I never talk, but I made you some calls
Oh, soar a ship over everything, uh, that friendship broke when the Feds came
You told me things would be different, but I knew better
They turned out exact same
Uh, life choices turned permanent (They do)
Opportunity seldom since (Eeh)
I just knew if I can made it through all that nonsense, I could have peace again
Too many losses, increase the wins
Rock bottom felt like Disney World (Remember), on the day when you said, "Not me again!" (Uhh)
Had to ventilate and look up, breath again
Eyes clearing, you can see the win transparent, you can see it's Him
I can finally be me when all my secrets no longer deep within
Fernie (Fernie, Fernie)

[Outro: [?]]
The leading symptom of having been traumatized is fear
Traumatized people are above anything else, scared
They're scared of getting close to others, of being abandoned
Of being humiliated, or disgraced, or falling ill
Probably of sex, of travelling, of their bodies, of parties
Of key bits of their minds, and in the broad sense, of the world (Of the world, of the world)