Despero

[Verse 1]
Battlin' these demons that grew
A lot bigger from the seize that I threw, huh
I guess you could see it as proof that in due season
Things that we do they reap with some fruit, huh
You can't separate a tree from its root
Well at least did not expect that when it spring it the bloom, nah
I know I should leave it to you, but that's so easy to say and not so easy to do, huh
Deep waters I'm completely consumed
Now for me to improve, mountains need to be moved
Man I think that I'm doomed, especially if it's true
That we becomе the thing that we repеatedly do
Guess that makes me just one giant mistake (A big mistake)
That's probably why most nights I'm awake (I can't sleep)
I try to escape from the guy that I hate
With the smile on my face, I won't deny that it's fake (Woah!)
I'm desperate but it feels like I'm in way too deep
I've been trying but of late it seems I may just sink (Oh!)
I'm feeling tired and my legs are weak (Oh!)
And just 'cause I got eyes don't mean that they can see (Can you hear me?)
I've been crying every day this week (Every day this week)
Shoot, I feel like dying just to gain some peace (Some peace)
I'm no longer trying, I embrace defeat (I embrace it)
So I put that iron in my brain it's squeak

[Verse 2]
Mm, and much to my surprise
My request for death, must have been denied
I'm awakened by the faces of loved ones by my side
Staring at me like, "You know you lucky you're alive"
All the demons I was running from was mine, and I would have pushed them all on the others if I died
But I could tell I crushed them
It was something in they eyes that just said
Dad, were we not enough for you to try?
You would leave us like this? (Would you?)
Is it that bad? (Huh?)
Do you even like us? You couldn't ask for help? (What?)
Wouldn't have seen a psychic?
I mean this shrink is hard to think with this machine and why is it, keep beeping
But you know what I mean, come on dad we can fight this
I'm just a teenager, it's killing me to see you like this
My mother's three and asking me if it was something I did
Then what's it mean, is daddy leaving us, are we invited?
I'm so confused, what are these devices?
That he's hooked up to, hey mom, why's he breathing like this?
Should I call the nurse, why does he seem so lifeless?
Can anybody hear me? Dad look at me, I'm frightened
Stupid machine again, why is it seeming like it
Beeping is getting faster, doesn't that mean he's dying?
Somebody go get the doctor!
Dad, look at me, keep fighting!
Don't you quit on me just, dad
Dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad
Dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad, dad