Ten Toes Down Challenge

If it was just me, I wouldn't be here
Getting education
Moving on was my only fear
When you feel so alone everything becomes very clear
No one really care until hear cries
But when I was alive all I ever heard were lies
Now my past catching up to my future
Tryna find a way to live without the violence
I just want the silence
I just want love to be here
Friends and family to be near
But if I just disappear
Time is ticking
So, who really got my back?
If I fall down, who really gon' be there to attack?
And my eyes began to hurt
When the pain begins to burst
And my heart begins to hurt
I just want the suffering to be over
Hopefully you'll be sober
Not hiding behind a mask
Trying to end my last
My only
But if death is really calling me
Why am I still here
Protect me if you sorry
Call me crazy go home and worry
Sorry I cause pain, not sorry it's in my veins
But I wish I could get better at the things, I thought were lame

Why am I still here? Why is it such a fear?
Losing the people that I loved
Seeing their shadows rise above
But I'm just me, feeling so unique
I know I can be free, really destined to be me
Glad I'm not in the streets
Wouldn't wanna be dead before we meet