Ten Toes Down

[Verse]
Yeah, take a look into my fucking eyes
Can you see all of my sorrow mixed with pain inside?
I ain't sure about tomorrow, shit I want to die
I've been depressed for a while, now, I'm sick and tired
I'm so fucked up I really need some help
But how can you help me if I can't even help myself
I'm so disappointed, voices telling me to pick your poison
You either OD or shoot yourself, just do a coin flip
I’m so broken, ain’t no way that you can fix me
If I pull the trigger who the fuck will really miss me?
Kiss me on my forehead when I'm inside my casket
Never gave a fuck but all of a sudden start to ass kiss
I know those times, develop love for you over night
But where was you when I had no one to hold me tight?
Nowhere in sight, so motherfuck no condolences
Born in 1994 and I've been lonely since
Yeah, said I've been lonely since
Had my family torn apart and we've been broken since
Took my dad away before I took my first breath
Took my dad away before he'd seen my first steps
How the fuck do you think I feel when I look back at it?
I start to choke up and panic like I'm asthmatic
Bad habits form so I can try to fill the void
After fact my whole family has been destroyed
A couple months back, my life changed
Dad's home but our connection feels quite strange
It's not the same like it once was in prison
I used to feel so close but now I feel so fucking distant
And it hurts me, I swear to God this shit just hurts me
'Cause I don't feel like your son, I feel unworthy
And I ain't saying this to try to bash you, dad
I'm only saying this because you lost in touch on what we had
You used to ask about me, show concern for what I'm doin'
Ask about my music and these dreams that I'm pursuin'
Now, all you ever talk about is problems with these women
It's funny how it happened, showing up all of a sudden
But don't forget, when you were locked up, we was always there
All you had was us when you was going through despair
Family is everything so don't you lose sight of that
I'm only saying this 'cause I love you and I want you back
Yeah, I said I want you back
I would do anything to keep our love and bond intact
We can't forget about our past and where we both been
'Cause all we had was each other through both thick and thin

[Hook]
You're my heart, mind and soul, pops
You're my treasure, you're my gold, pops
And your heart is where I'm home, pops
Without you I am not home, pops

[Outro]
Love you