Tears and Laughter

[Chorus]
I'm running out of reasons
Let you suckle on my brain while it's bleeding, yeah
I'm running out of reason
Now all my attitudes are defeatist, yeah
I'm running out of reasons
Let you suckle on my brain while it's bleeding, yeah
I'm running out of reason
Now all my attitudes are defeatist, yeah

[Verse 1]
My room is cage
But I gain perspective as my age advances
Yeah it’s a small ass space
But I don’t deserve better
Scared to venture downstairs
Cause that’ll force interactions with my family
Who are owed someone better then me
And when it comes to shit like this I should be
On a black list
Since I’m practically absent
Family dynamic is shifting dramatically
Emphatically pushing away all the people that care as to whether I live or I die
Doing my best to surmise a solution that leaves everybody with room to move on
From all of their fears
The method I use is to Laugh through the tears

[Chorus]
I'm running out of reasons
Let you suckle on my brain while it's bleeding, yeah
I'm running out of reason
Now all my attitudes are defeatist, yeah
I'm running out of reasons
Let you suckle on my brain while it's bleeding, yeah
I'm running out of reason
Now all my attitudes are defeatist, yeah

[Verse 2]
My mind is a prison that I can’t get out of man I wanna lie down
What id do to get outta my head
For a couple of hours
To not think about the pollen when I smell the flowers
I’m like an animal
Consequences tangible
The only thing deterring me from doing something radical
Wish I had an escape
A way to do the things I know the whole world would hate
Even if I know it’s a mistake
I don’t even have a personality anymore
Can’t tell reality from pictures on a board
Tell me what I’m living for
Cause right now it’s other people
And the more I think about the more that I think it’s evil
My eyes are open
I’ll just keep dividing quotients
Keep on making reasons smaller till I overcome the fear and disappear

[Chorus]
I'm running out of reasons
Let you suckle on my brain while it's bleeding, yeah
I'm running out of reason
Now all my attitudes are defeatist, yeah
I'm running out of reasons
Let you suckle on my brain while it's bleeding, yeah
I'm running out of reason
Now all my attitudes are defeatist, yeah