Still Say Your Name

[Verse: Coal Cash]
Every time I reach success, I get the rug swept from under me
Running as each step tugs the neglect that was strung to me
I’m one for deep breaths, weight on my chest force my lungs to bleed
I’m numb by each death, waiting to rest, exhaust encumbers me
I’m wonderfully depressed, guess I’m useless like most left hands
Manned up for the best ever—funny ‘cause I’ve never been a best man
With best plans laid to waste, fueling misery saved by grace
I embrace it beautifully ‘cause it’s usually all in faith. Call to haste
To embrace the impact, chasing the wind where the cyclone spin at. Waste of the skin
And I might go inept, chasing the sin of the psycho synapse. Violence to win
To silence the din, my science has been defiantly in the pinnacle hunger
So I am the hunter, so it ain’t no wonder why I got giants for kin
Triumph begins, so stick a fork in, hear the whisperers talking
Coffin the things you thought. I’m King of New York, ain’t talking Christopher Walken
To visit the scorching flames of Gehenna heretic epicenter
The nemesis specter of Tesla, manifestor of America’s best antenna
Inventor of frequencies, spitting sequence of what grievance me
Egregiously frequents the deep end like a weekend spent on DMT
We’re TNT, a freeing spree with Tabs, my PNC
Emcees are fleeing fast like I’m the Tarrasque out of D&D
No seeing me, get DDT’d until you deeply bleed
Can’t believe that’s your rhyme, go through your lines like it’s an easy read
Your measly steez don’t appease me because you keep it cheesy
Coal breathing the scripture to change the picture like a Freaky Freezy
I keep it greazy, reap the harvest of this garden of garbage
Garnish gratuity plus the annuity you foolishly squandered
I pondered upon it ‘til I vomit from its economics
That promised impoverished people chances are equal to get beyond it
That shit is comic like Islamic State Israeli snakes
I wake to it daily, wait for it to fail me, and I can barely take
The hate that jails me in aggression, expressing depression
Oppression of fleshly stress ‘til my soul manifest in the session
We’re destined to bless with death, so the rest should just turn and run
Is Tabs One the best? Yes, where the fuck you think he learned it from?
Eternity spun, the sun’s cycle where the Son’s disciple
It’s spiral-propelled, I’m spitting shells like my tongue’s a rifle
I’m Michael as well to quell Satan when he tries to rebel
He fell with the forsaken, my occupation is take him to Hell
Awaken from spells, I’m held under thunder through Wonderland
Stranded in lands of slumber laid over, no closer to understand
The plan for it all: I’d fall for a chance just to glance at its halls
Then crawl back on my hands—goddamn, I should have answered his calls
And now it’s all in memories faded as my propensity waited
For faded recollections, epiphanies blessing as my sensory made it
Elated, wishing for all the loved ones that I was missing
It’s misting up my eyes ‘cause I still cry over this reminiscing
Remembering within when I was with him, now I’m without
Someone who knew my troubles when I was struggling with this doubt
Fully eclipsed, now the ship’s bow sinking below the waves
Amazed at how I’ve strayed, afraid I no longer have a soul to save
I’m weighed down, the grave sounds like I’m near the verge
Disturbed, surging with tears, and I wonder if you can hear these words
Purge the fear, I’m still here, holding down the fort
Taught to stand my ground, hell-bound without the ground support
And clowns would talk behind my back, and I’m reminded that
The path of art is fearless, so if they hear this, I hope their mind reacts
With panic to enact a synapse firing inapt, my syntax
Firing Dim Mak, fry the wiring in your tin hats
They call it panache. I got your style retiring in trash
I’ve been passed the torch, scorch ‘til your cohorts are in ash
I need to swim fast because this current leads to undertow
I know I gotta believe, but, still, I grieve at what the numbers show
I wanna know how far it goes, and should I even try?
Why am I breathing? Don’t stop believing even if dreams can die
I mean to cry, the wells are dry behind the seeing lens
Pretending you’re by my side, and, when I die, I hope we meet again

[Hook: Coal Cash] (x7)
Nothing feels the same, and it’s never gonna change
Filled with this pain, sometimes we say your name
Standing in the rain, and the world seems so strange
Your memory? It wanes. Sometimes we say your name

[Outro: Coal Cash]
Nothing feels the same, and it’s never gonna change
(Change, change, change, change)
Nothing feels the same, and it’s never gonna change
(Change, change, change)
Nothing feels the same, and it’s never gonna change
Filled with this pain, I still say your name
Nothing feels the same, and it’s never gonna change
Filled with this pain, I still say your name