Sleepless Nights

[Verse 1: Coal Cash]
Falling from grace until the sin I chase tie my leash
Seems I’ve been strangled by dreams dangled outside my reach
They teach the angles, I’m thankful they grade this by a curve
Observe the fandangle, entangled by every lie we heard
Prefer to wrangle vs. the Star-Spangled subterfuge
That prove to get rougher the more I try to suffer through
They must’ve knew the desired ways of reckless life
I press through the maze, fazed by tired days and restless nights
The best advice I ever got is: you should give it up
It’s not enough to live—the problem is that I don’t give a fuck
So is it stuck or did I cuff myself to sinking ships?
Thinking I’m not embarrassed chasing carrots on that stinking stick
I won’t disparage, tow the carriage over jagged grounds
Hit from mountainside, wasn’t surprised when it dragged me down
I’ll gladly drown ‘cause something is bound to take my life
Waiting to catch a break ‘cause I’m tired of laying awake at night
Let’s make it right—yeah, right, that shit is laughable
I’m off the beaten path, stopped by road blocks unpassable
My works are masterful, but the masses got their asses full
Of industry dick, thinking radio hits are classical
We keep our glasses full of the liquor, it makes the night move quicker
I’m sick of this life, the way humans tend to fight and bicker
It might be quicker by the suicidal rage I hid
It’s not that I’m afraid, just don’t want the world to raise my kids

[Hook: Coal Cash] (x2)
Though as tired as I’m feeling, staring at
A crack on the ceiling, this life is not appealing
Wide-awake, I should be sleeping, dawn is slowly
Creeping, soon my alarm will start beeping
Nightmares when I’m dreaming, spectral and
Uneven when I wrestle with my demons
Toss and turning on my mattress, tryna scratch
A back itch, just wanna fade back to blackness

[Verse 2: Coal Cash]
“I’m hate and pain,” said the king. I spit all assault
I’ll take the blame, everything is usually all my fault
Built a vault around my heart, threw away the key
Angry, full of salt. “Suck my balls. Hope it tastes like pee”
Case may be a losing cause from the given laws
From the Strawman accounts with death amounts under hidden clause
Driven towards a cliff edge, into our death we leap
A deep heap of shit, so when I hit, I hope to get some sleep
I speak my mind, but find, times, couldn’t stomach it
‘Cause none of it makes sense, into the summit quickly plummeted
I’d run with it, but got run over going in front of it
I summon my supper but suffering structure under a ton of bricks
Who’s gonna fix all the damage of the lies I broke?
Choked the life from the eyes but held supply—now that’s besides the joke
A rising smoke in the sky, I watch my dreams depart
Seems like a lie. How can it die? It never even sparked
Seasons start to blend, and every day seems the same
The pain of migraines with no reprieve to ever ease my brain
I’m so insane, I say your name like you hear me talking
I lost my way, Jeff, I think I left it near your coffin
I’ve been tossing in my sleep, feel like a frenzied flee
Like, “Hey, that’s me in a garbage chute of an NCD”
An empty tree, all my fruit left my branches bare
Trying to catch the spark of a wildfire as it danced on air
Romance despair ‘cause misery loves my company
It clung to me like the fabric of straightjackets hugging me comfortably
I’m numbing wonderfully from the rug swept from under me
Using redundancy, reflect inundations that encumbered me
I’m staring upwardly at the fuckery pissing on my brow
They swear that skulduggery’s just a luxury of my karma cloud
My honor vowed to be a mustard seed beyond the doubt
Devout to move a mountain, but it’s grounded down my farmer’s plow
I wanted clout but came closer to abandoned fetus
Prestigious, cry to fans, but they’ll never understand my genius
I’m one of the meanest motherfuckers, I make trouble costly
Awfully and dreadidly, you’re dead to me if you double-cross me
Can’t get it off me, the stench and the shame that I crave
Sat wet and frosty, drenched in the rain by your grave
Regret is costly, it exhausts me how I fail and fall
Could Hail-Mary grenades, blades would ricochet and impale my balls
The snail trail was out for tail, would’ve nailed it all
Called an alpha male, no fishscale, I gave them whale and walls
Jailed the halls of my thoughts, and that’s in great conflict
Sick and disturbed, so treat my words as escaped convicts
I may vomit to pay homage to the future dreamers
Who won’t exist if we don’t fix Fukushima
A super senior, my arena was the common’s flaw
My calm and call was a 64 Commodore
A carnivore, I’m a connoisseur of sovereign law
A conqueror, I’m the modern Thor, a God of War
Forgotten law, fuck flocks of whores for the shock and awe
And got more sores on my cock from tainted twats with rotten cores
Do not applause, but I’m sure that it was clap-worthy
Pervy and dirty gaps, surprised my stats didn’t catch herpes
Perhaps mercy is the only thing that guides me through
The fact I’m unworthy, fail at everything I try to do
Deny the view for wrong perception, tryna form perfection
Reflections of the lawn that I long for in a strong deception
Perform corrections when the lessons finally take their toll
It’s out of control ‘cause, in my soul, there’s a great big hole
Sinking below in an undertow of what I let repeat
Drowning deep in regret, no wonder I can never get to sleep

[Hook: Coal Cash]
Though as tired as I’m feeling, staring at
A crack on the ceiling, this life is not appealing
Wide-awake, I should be sleeping, dawn is slowly
Creeping, soon my alarm will start beeping
Nightmares when I’m dreaming, spectral and
Uneven when I wrestle with my demons
Toss and turning on a mattress, tryna scratch
A back itch, just wanna fade into blackness
Just wanna fade into blackness
Just wanna fade into blackness