​​so vile

lights out
i got both hands on the barrel
busy staring at a screen, do it carelessly
trash bags piling you could see em through the windows
tryna set the scene, what it really be

im not number in the winter
i throw on the same clothes
dont pay attention to the blisters
got a shopping bag full of pulled out splinters
i got water in my cup im tryna cast out my bitterness

its been a while
lay on the floor
and my head is so vile
and my frown goes for miles
its not the same you can't fill out my smile

i dont wanna wait another day
like the sun sets down and my life moves to darker shadеs of grey
i would tell you but i dont know what to say
i got enеmies and demons all around me and they wont move out my way

please dont stare at me like i make it up
feel it every day every second when im wakin up