​​i’ll hold the torch for as long as i can

Could I rip this lowly veil away
I lay down in trenches
Counting how much of the time it takes

Oh, how the winter makes my head decay
There's a strange comfort in it
Guess it makes me want to stay

I find no peace in all the voices
And my doorstep staying blocked, blunting noises
It's my responsibility to keep on holding torches
Can't make any promises, the darkness only worsens

Time froze when I left home
Another night better left untold
More thoughts, another lump insidе my throat
I lay back, ripping up another note

I can't stop the thoughts of distant company
You madе me feel like I was something worthy, then let go of me
And I can't clean the messes that I make
They're right in front of me
But I just cannot give myself a chance
Before I'm fumbling

I find no peace in all the voices
And my doorstep staying blocked, blunting noises
It's my responsibility to keep on holding torches
Can't make any promises, the darkness only worsens