Rabbit Hole

I was like 10 years old when I fell down the rabbit hole
Filling my mind with images unacceptable
A prime staple in the modern ages
And convenient access, no need for books with pages
My young mind took it in so fast
Scrolling through the different links that would shape my past
A foundation of lust that felt too right to be wrong
Held me down for years, I didn't try to be strong
I'm not proud of those nights, I'm not
Lost the confidence I could've had to take my shots
Didn't know what love was, didn't know how it felt
When all my thoughts around it came from right beneath my belt
It's been two years since I've tried to leave it behind
And I still have foreign thoughts come in the back of my mind
It takes strength I don't have to banish them from my brain
I let divine intervention slay my demons each day

Spent too long way too damn long
Down the rabbit hole
And I, thankful I
Will never leave behind my soul

When I left my hometown I tripped on a lace
Fell down and saw the rabbit hole in front of my face
I didn't even resist, I took a headfirst dive
And spent a summer of loneliness I wish wasn't mine
It's become just a crutch, a way I know how to feel
Yet there's no love involved, this facade isn't real
A landscape of objectification, it's celebrated
Society loves sex, it's ingrained in our nation
It's my time to rise up, break addiction's chains
I'll never be a husband or father if it remains
God, banish all these thoughts, redirect this energy
Please let me be the man I know you want me to be
And I know I'm not alone, there are millions of others
Who let pornography blur the lines between love and lovers
May you bring a better lense and open our eyes
Let our cup overflow as we stare into your light, tonight

Spent too long way too damn long
Down the rabbit hole
And I, thankful I
Will never leave behind my soul

If you've ever been in the same place, sing this next part with me
We will not fall (we will not fall)
We will not fall (we will not fall)

From the crooked sensation
To the human deprivation
This is our time now
To reclaim what they have made us
From the exploitation
To moral defenestration
We will not back down
To right the wrong the world created

Spent too long way too damn long
Down the rabbit hole
And I, thankful I
Will never leave behind my soul

Spent too long way too damn long
Down the rabbit hole
And I, thankful I
Will never leave behind my soul