Okay For Now

Okay for now
I wish someone would have told me that I'd be okay
I wish someone would have held my hand and guided me towards the right way
I wish someone would have helped me pick my head up and showed me what life could be
I wish someone would have smirked at my first heart break and instead of asking questions just let me be
Then explained why it's okay to cry
Followed by all the reasons why sometimes life just lets love die
I wish I gave my time to men who knew how to kiss me on my forehead and remind me that life is nothing short of beautiful
I wish more men could see how my insides are beautiful
I wish I was taught to tell a man from a boy
I wish my mother stood beside me as I looked for defects in each mirror
I wish each teacher would have encouraged me to follow my dreams instead of study for SATs
I wish the school system told me that my worth wasn't defined by my test scores and
I wish television showed me that struggle is reality and I'd be happiest with emotional and mental stability
I wish I broke less hearts
I wish my father wouldn't have cheated on my mother
And I wish it were easier to find a lover nothing like him
I wish it were all a little bit easier
I wish I could speak to the younger me and apologize for all the hurt and confusion I put me through
God
Look what I made of me
I wish little me could see
I can't keep from smiling
Through every struggle I learned to find I'm far more powerful than anything formed against me
I just wish someone would have told me that
I'd be okay