My Demons

[verse 1]
I'm downing bottles like fuck my liver
I cut my palms to paint a fucking picture
Then i let it all out to suffer quicker
Tell my loved ones that I'm depressed
I try to find god
I'm only finding stress
Always distant cause my minds a mess
Down a bottle of these pills when its time to rest
Like i died in my sleep and i came back
Not many other people here can say that
Believe me when i say that
I didn't pray to god
But he prayed back
And I've seen hell
I've talked to god
I've had hope
I've lost it all
I tried to be an angle
But turned demon when the munts had called
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They make these drugs to take the pain away
So thank the Dr. when they save the day
Dr dr
Thank you
I no longer feel alive
I no longer feel my mind
And all the thoughts i hear inside
Like thank you for numbing me
Memories that fuck with me
Of a girl who's in love with me
Are better with these drugs in me
So lets forget it all together
Lets pretend we saw forever
Let it end
No no no
Fuck that fuck that
Let it end
No
Not ever
[verse 2]
Nightmares on the daily
And dreaming on the nightly
I go to sleep
And wonder why if theres anybody like me
Thats why when i wake up
I always wish i hadn't
Cause id rather die happy in this place that I've imagined
And its said that these things happen
Acid tablets to see past the fact
I might not fucking last in rap
If that happens ill blast a cap
But i think i just like the pain
Yea its a game
Playing tic tac toe
All by myself
Across my veins