Finale

Im haunted by these memories
They just remind me
No matter how much i say to myself
They don't define me
I'm looking at these lights
And i hope they blind me
I hope they take me far away
To somewhere no one finds me
That possibility is quite likely
Cause theres only misery in my physique
Depressed
I just can't believe that i might be
I'm trying to kill my demons
But they look just like me
I haven't laughed in a minute
Im bashful
They're thinking I'm an asshole
I get it
But they don't understand
What I'm feeling on the day to day
I always either numb
Or asking god to take the pain away
I've lost all hope
I don't think i can say its fair to have no faith
Then just turn around and say a prayer
Like "dear god i know I'm fucked in the head
Is that why whenever i pray
You say nothing instead
How come when i ask for love you put some sluts in my bed?
Is that why you never answer when I'm stuck in this mess?"
The suffer and stress
Cause thats really every day now
Lost and never stay found
Cause no one seems to stay round
Momma said you'd answer when my mind was ineffective
But trust me I've been calling
I guess your lines been disconnected
Or
I dont know
Maybe you just hit ignore
Tell me what you're in it for
Lets talk for just a minute more
You could've killed me in the hospital
The Dr. said i wouldn't make it
Damn this seems impossible
So tell me why you choose to let me live and walk away
Just to give me darker days
Man i don't get it
Loss of faith
Loss of faith
Cause i don't think that god believes in me
No i don't think that god believes in me (x3)