Missed Calls

[Intro: Qua & Bo Allen]
Aye, Miles, where you at man? Damn! Can't answer your phone? You know I got some shit I need to record, I need you on the one's & two's my nigga! Hit me back
Hey Miles, it's Bo. Man, where you been at? I know you've been working on the album, but, I mean, you gotta let us know what you're doing or something. Man, just hit me back when you get this. Aight

[Verse 1: Miles Canady]
​I've been spending months stuck in the same place, haven't touched my mic in weeks and there's problems I need to face
I haven't left the house in ages, you can see it in my face that I'm hiding the obvious fact that I'm in a bad place
I'm not together at all, I feel pressure & stall, people asking what's wrong sending letters and all
I see all red scrolling through my call log
I just don't have the energy to return these missed calls
Investing time in a dream that's not promised, hands shaky at the thought cause that vision isn't the fondest
Can't keep my phone still while I'm writing to be honest, storms inside of my brain but here is where I feel the calmest
Dreams of leaving the same visions that I hate to see, only obstacle is my complacency
I wanna be famous, I wanna be Kanye, I wanna be P, I wanna be Tyler, that's to say I don't wanna be me
Like, What's a struggle rapper to his idols? Trying to follow footsteps, In Search Of is my bible
Trying to follow the Blueprint of Illmatic, but it's looking like College Dropout'll be my title
So I'm working but I'm running out of lines, imma let it ring if somebody hits my line
Act like I ain't get it and give it some weeks time, go back to my recents and then try to call them back like...

[Hook]
​Sorry, I forgot to call you, I don't have excuses, feel like I've been stalling
Thinking, clouded, feeling like the weather, I just find it hard trying to keep it all together
Stop to think about it - Don't know what to tell ya, you don't know what's happening, I feel like a failure
I just hit a wall and don't know what to tell you, sorry that I failed you, please don't hit my cellular

[Interlude: nate]
Miles, where the hell are you? I've been trying to reach you for weeks, but it's like you've disappeared. You know, at first I thought it was like a prank or something. But, i'm really, really worried now. I've tried talking to others and trying to contact you, but I've had no luck

[Verse 2: Miles Canady]
​In the same clothes, haven't showered in a couple days, I'm down from everything but I won't bother to pick up the weight
Trying to alleviate, but I find it hard to muster strength, so I stay inside my room & suffocate
I'm rewarding myself with nothing to celebrate and watching my friendships fall apart like my mental state
Killing sense of self-worth that was never there, thinking "if I disappeared, I wonder who it would devastate"
I check my phone for the first time in eons, missed calls from grandma, dad, the homies, and mom
Chris, Cortney, Doni, Qua, CJ and Gian, losing focus on friendships just to finish these damn songs
All for 10 plays just to feel like some type of artist, too afraid to show tears, so instead I laugh the hardest
I notice things getting hard, couldn't handle them at their hardest, so my first instinct is to run the farthest
It must be getting old at this point, having peace of mind just to have it all disjoint
Then it's back to running from myself and the idea that I could be exposed and then disappoint
So i'm working like i'm running out of time, imma let it ring if somebody hits my line
Act like I ain't get it and give it some weeks time, go back to my recents and then try to call em back, like...

[Hook]

[Outro: nate]
Please, Miles, if you get this message, call me back, please. Bye