Introvert

​[Verse]
I could never stand the sight of myself in the mirror, as if keeping from the sight'll help me see clearer
Barely turn my phone off so I won't see my reflection, when I do I try to keep my eyes closed or hold it nearer
I could never stand to hear my voice on record, as if tuning myself out'll make me sound better
Cringing when they run me back, I feel another attack, Annie creeping up again, I never could forget her
I could never speak loud enough for you to hear me, always had a problem pronouncing my words clearly
Hate speaking up so I never say a word, and repeating myself is a thing that I'm fearing
I could never not care about your perception, but I could always think of my own worth as a question
Built myself up, but the slightest comment could tear me down, now shambles is what my confidence is left in
I could never shake the feeling that I'm being watched, I could never turn my attention from these thoughts
But I could almost always tell myself that I'll never be good enough or the one they applaud
I could never separate myself from a crowd, but I could always have my head hanging down
The thought of being judged and a lack of self-esteem had me scared to the point where I wouldn't make a sound
So I suffer in silence, swear I'm okay but to others I look lifeless
There's not a circle where I fit, Too white for the blacks & too black for the white kids
Only one seeing things in color, but I'd rather have this set of problems than another
Rather reveal everything than keep it all covered, Even if it means imma suffer
Every time I put thoughts to a page, they put on a facade like they're shocked & amazed
Like they didn't laugh at my awkwardest phases, like they didn't scoff and accept all the sameness
General consensus got me questioning myself, "will they brush me off if I try to ask for help?"
They told me "pray on it" when I have already, I could never be held up by the Bible Belt
Always wear my heart on a sleeve, but it's covered like tattoos at a job interview
True emotion hidden, but it's part of me forever, it could never be something that's lost cause of you
Quiet kid going through the most all the time, when they offer help, I'm supposed to decline
Do the best I can to hide my tears with my hat, wanna show emotion but I hesitate when it's time
So I suffer in silence, swear I'm okay but to others I look lifeless
There's not a circle where I fit, Too white for the blacks & too black for the white kids
Only one seeing things in color, but I'd rather have this set of problems than another
Rather reveal everything than keep it all covered, Even if it means imma suffer

[Outro]
My eyesight's blurry, won't get any clearer
Maybe I should just get rid of my mirror
Can't look at myself, stuck inside my shell
Don't unlock the door, stay, we might as well
I can't get rid of this image
My reflection made it something it isn't
I think I need help, I don't love myself
I see your hand out, I don't need your help