Miracle Worker

[Verse 1]
Made it this far on my own
I don't wanna fight it anymore
But I press on
Spent my whole life in a hole
It's time to come out and explore
It's time to live on
Never was one to lose control
My future and my past are all I know
I'm never in the moment, don't know how to focus
I don't know how to slow down and just coast
I wanna move on
I just wanna stand up, I just wanna fight back
I just wanna show 'em that I'm bigger than a white flag
Wish it wasn't like that
I just wanna guide all the kids in the same boat as me to the life raft
Now I got everything that I need, but I'm still not fed
Donnin' all black, lately it's lookin' like all red
Got some dеmons, never stoppin', evеn when they're all dead
All dead, yeah

[Verse 2]
And I couldn't let anybody see me, I was jaded
I had to let go and reroute the path that I was takin'
Whenever you're done with me, let me know, so I'll stop waitin'
I wanna keep going, but I don't know how to stop fakin'
These feelings of contentedness when I'm not there yet
Thought that I was mended, thought it was a fair bet
Thought I didn't care, turned out I was never careless
I ain't going nowhere yet
I wanna feel alive, so many nights
Thought it was ending
If I were to die, I know that I
I'd still be fending for myself up in the afterlife
All that I love is still below the sky, I'm still alive
Can't tell me nothing at all

[Chorus]
I'm not a miracle
I'm not a miracle
I'm not a miracle, I just simply didn't let go
I'm not a miracle
I'm not a miracle
I'm not a miracle, I'll go wherever I wanna go

[Post-Chorus]
I'll go wherever I wanna go
You know that I'll be right there
I'll go wherever I wanna go
Wanna go

[Verse 3]
And now I'm trying to leave this dark past
Feel like I'm living in a car crash
But in this very moment, I know that I'm here because I fought back
I made the best of where I've been at
But I've been staring down the beast of growing up, and it's a hard task
I'm graduating in a year, I can't begin to wrap
My head around the fact that my youth soon will not be intact
I can't wait to leave, but I know deep down, I'ma miss that
But I'll be free at last

[Verse 4]
I'll be free to finally breathe
The weight will be lifted off me
But as I know, it will take time
I'm learning more each day of life
It's so uncertain where I'll find
Myself when it's finally time
Can't say I got here on my own
But I am not a miracle

[Chorus]
I'm not a miracle
I'm not a miracle
I'm not a miracle, I just simply didn't let go
I'm not a miracle
I'm not a miracle
I'm not a miracle, I'll go wherever I wanna go

[Outro]
And I can't just let it go, I'll always go back to those places
I'ma let it show that I don't know where I'll be taken
Gonna hit some lows, but I'll be home when I don't feel lost
Don't tell me where to show my face, I'll go wherever I want