Happy Endings

[Intro]
This time, I tried, I really, really did
But I lied, inside, it's dark as an abyss
And I'd fight a while, but then I ran and hid
'Cause I know, deep down, I'll always be the same old kid

[Instrumental Break]

[Verse]
I can't change, 'cause I know they'll come around again
I bend, but I won't break, hold me down again
I'm always makin' mistakes, I always hated this place
But I can't say it, 'cause I know I'll leave a trace, yeah
And I can see right through everything that you say
I hope you know I never wanted it this way
It's all a game, can't explain, can't say that I wanted change
'Cause I just wanted out of your range
(I just wanted out of your range)
And now I'm sitting here (Sitting here)
In the driver's seat (In the driver's seat)
I feel like going out (I feel like going out)
About a hundred three (About a hundred three)
And when they say my name on TV, I don't wanna hear you sayin' that you loved me
'Cause I don't ever recall getting that energy

[Pre-Chorus]
And I don't wanna know what's in your dreams
I lost it tonight, and honestly, I'm bursting at the seams
You remind me of myself in 2015
Letting things get in the way of the life that you lead
And I just hope you know that I'd give everything
Just to see you gone, so I could have some peace
You remind me of myself when I was fourteen
Was the one that locked the door, but I lost the key

[Chorus]
You don't gotta tell me that it's all my fault
Any day could be my day, so I just gotta stand tall
It feels like every single time I try to run, I fall
Wanna leave this earth, but I know I can't make that call
It's so hard to run away, but it's not easy livin'
Can't just say, "Oh, well", play the cards I'm given
All these voices in my headphones are so condescending
Wish I would've held on to the happy endings

[Bridge]
Every night, I'm stuck in this cycle
This fight or flight got me feeling frightful
And those tears I cried, no, they don't mean nothing now
And I did my time, but I still couldn't get you out
Of my head, it's becoming an issue
At night, in my bed, dreams of leaving here with you
And no one told me what I did was wrong
No one has to tell me, I know that it's all my fault

[Chorus]
You don't gotta tell me that it's all my fault
Any day could be my day, so I just gotta stand tall
It feels like every single time I try to run, I fall
Wanna leave this earth, but I know I can't make that call
It's so hard to run away, but it's not easy livin'
Can't just say, "Oh, well", play the cards I'm given
All these voices in my headphones are so condescending
Wish I would've held on to the happy endings