Mind of the Stargazer

[Verse 1]
Dark mind, black heart
Can’t believe I got the nerve to call this art
Brain holds the reigns call it the mastermind
Got me in a bind while I write rhymes and lines
Uh, bleeding so heavy got my thinking on a leak
Thoughts got me on a leash I can’t speak
I reek of wickedness, I eat the bitterness
Naked and ashamed I’m hiding in the wilderness
Fever on high, power on low
My forehead’s hot and my body’s feeling cold
Seventeen and I feel so old I’m cursed
Save my soul cause my inside’s all merked
In church but the truth is I ain’t growing
Rowing the boat but it definitely ain’t going
Now I’m depressed from being in this mess
Caressed eyebrows from being so stressed
Tests of life and all I can see is failure
Satan so happy he be glad to be the mailer
Intoxicated dreams, tweeting writing fiend
Venting machine is how I get my brain free
Comatose I dwell, I’m under a spell
Suffering so harsh like I’m already in hell
Rapping so dull I never wanted this to happen
Nightmare passion like a haunted mansion
I need to restart my spitting and my health
But I can’t do this all alone I need some help
No more breaks don’t how much I can take
Let a minute go wasted and there goes my fate
It shakes me to know, I gotta let it go
I’m taking the toll and so is my flow
I’ve got so much things to be let off my chest
And thus I can’t rest and plus I feel vexed
Finger to the head taking imaginative shots
Pop, pop, pop from my suicidal thoughts
Sea of thoughts I’ve hit rock bottom
Blooming flower dead I’m falling like it’s autumn
So crazy I think I’m going insane
When I stand in the rain the devil has me tamed
Rain embedded in my head I feel so dead
Zombie stead, this is the life that I led
I shed skin, hair, and tears from being tired
Burned by the fire cause my future’s on a wire
I gotta be more responsible and disciplined
Out of this house I hate the place that I live in
Cause I ain’t living, I can’t even breathe
In bed in deep sleep with LSRYD dreams
Lazy and hazy I got it all in my fantasies
No more masquerades and no more insecurities
But I’m tired of dreaming since it pains me
Cause I know that I would never get a Bailey
Hail Mary attempt to reach my healing
Hard work won’t guarantee that I won’t be kneeling
Rambling and ranting on the talks
I won’t move on if I don’t ever stop
If I don’t answer when you scream or call
I might not even be in the present at all
Yeah!