Jazz’s Interlude

[Verse 1]
They think they know me, they think they know me so well
They think they know me so well so they think that they can tell
Well but a bird can’t relate to what a lone wolf envisions
They say all they want but they’ve never been in my position
In front of the stage glorious in my masquerade
The day I unveil the truth would be the day I fade
So I kept things to myself and suffered solitary pain
Bleeding in silence as I continued on to pray
Switching faces during phases I’ve mastered after ages
For the sake of being wanted I kept paying the wages
Identity crisis, I no longer hold the key
The key to unlock the real me to be finally free
You see time after time I lose a part of myself
Stranger in the mirror I can barely recognize myself
Tears of a clown covered by hysterical laughs
Resulting in a one dimensional character in the aftermath
I’m sick and tired of all this acting
Blending just to mix in by constantly bluffing and pretending
Two faced man I have a dent in my heart
My importance isn’t even in play I want a new part
Man, this is all so wrong
I’m always rolling along I don’t even know where I belong
It’s inevitable, people constantly change
But if it’s for the better of others then are they really the same?
I’m sorry that you only got half of me
Behind the curtains I’m not who you think is me
My fake smile pierces through my flesh like a knife
Tortured by all the different acts that I have to recite
Master of disguise there ain’t nothing I won’t hide
So certain that I would take my secrets with me when die
I’m just a shadow living under everyone else’s sunshine
The world isn’t kind they don’t accept my kind
Then it happened, the day I relieved my true presence
Everyone saw and was appalled by the horrid essence
Cause they all liked someone who was not me
So when they saw me they couldn’t believe it was me
The result in the end was desertion
They didn’t want anything to do with this new person
Was this even worth it? Cause now I feel worthless
I guess affection and attention is something you gotta purchase
I’m so mad at myself for shedding my skin so lightly
Never knew the cost to being real was so pricey
I just wish they could accept me for who I am
If they don’t take me as I am guess I'mma search for another fam
Don’t you dare label me as the rapper
Don’t you dare label me as the pastor’s son
You think it’s fun to be recognized by something else
Why can’t they ever recognize me for myself
This is me, this is who I am
And you don’t want make this a problem I promise man
Tryna show me that you know me when you don’t really
You know that you don’t know me so stop acting like you know me