​killing me

[James McHenry]
Forever killing me

Choking on my own words
Hoping that I end up dead
Ink hits the paper but there's nothing that hasn't been said
I try to tell myself that what I'm feeling is alright
I invalidate that: "Suffering is daily life"

Forever and ever
These thoughts won't leave my mind
Forever and ever
I'm fucking telling you it's

Killing me (Inside and I don't reach out)
Sever me (From this cloud of self-loathing)
Can't spill the vomit inside
Can't stop telling myself lies
The world fucking drains my will to be alive

[Rat Jesu]
It's been killing mе
A feeling of inadequacy
A shattered disappointmеnt
Wrapped in rags of uncertainty
I push my head under the water so that I can feel clean
But the blood has stained my soul, I can never be free
I can never be free
I can never be free
I can never be free

[James McHenry]
I can never be free

[Rat Jesu]
Abandoned on the pavement
Bleeding out, I'm fading away
I ask if this is the end
But this is everyday

[James McHenry]
Burden to my loved ones
I can never fucking fall asleep
Headed for disaster
No one ever hears me fucking scream

[Rat Jesu]
Suffocating, so frustrating
Wish that I could end it all
I'm just fading, deprecating
Nail myself onto a cross
Try again, again, again
But I don't feel a change at all
Try and fail and fall and spiral
Nothing left, can't take it all

[James McHenry]
Forever and ever
They eat my soul away
Forever and ever
They fucking kill me

Killing me, sever me
Can't spill the vomit inside
Can't stop telling myself lies
The world fucking drains my will to be alive