Intherain

[Verse 1: S God]
Broken down, I don't know nothing else
Hide from my feelings, fuckin' hate myself
Never had luck with any cards I was delt
Never thought that I belonged, never love that I felt
And the few friends I have never check up
Have to fake being happy from the neck up
See the smile on my face makes 'em think that I'm alright
But the truth is I don't wanna live, I'd rather fuckin' die
I feel like I've lost all control of my life
And the path that I'm on isn't even fuckin' mine
Not one for academics but expected to be
See the intrests of my parents not relected in me
And in chasin' "real jobs", my dreams neglected you see
I'm just tryna fuckin' be what I was destined to be
What I was destined to be
But all this hate and self doubt starts gettin' to me

[Verse 2: S God]
Can't do this, can't do that 'cause of who I am
Say I'm tryna be another, but this who I am
And I don't really need you to understand
Just please support me as much as you can
'Cause all I really wanna do is make you proud
Do a show, look down and see you standin' in the crowd screamin' loud
Then come back stage and tell me "Look what you've accomplished"
And how my achievements always leave you so astonished
And look, with the money that I make I'll take care of you, I promise
Talkin' house in the hills with the lawn lookin' flawless
And I know it's not exactly what you planned
But I'm tryna do my best the only way that I can
I'm an artsit, a creator, not meant for a 9 to 5
'Cause the music really helps me wanna stay alive
I know I'm something special and I know that I can do it
But I need your trust, please support me through it
We've had our differences I know, and you'd rather I spend time with you than spend my time alone
But I need that time to grow, to perfect my craft
To make sure my music gonna last
I'm sorry I'm not interested in school
I'm sorry I was never one to follow all your rules
I'm sorry I'm not what you wanted me to be
I'm sorry that I'm interested in things that are "street" but please
Try to see it from where I'm at, there's no need for all this mental/verbal combat
You think I have no plan and I'm really unprepared
But there's really not a reason to be scared
'Cause I know what I'm doing, just trust that I do
And all the moves that I'm making, man I learned that shit from you
I do really love you, I do really care
And all I need from you is support of my carrer