I Notice

[Verse 1]
I notice
When I walk outside I hope this
Pays off one day I chose it
One day, someday I hope it
Went in the big labels and saw plaques on walls but I didn’t post it
Didn’t wanna gas or boast it
That’s not one of the things I’m made of
But one day will it pay off?
Mums says I got to do music
And Dad says to not quit my day job
It’s a hard one still
It’s not fake the bars are real
Sometimes I can rely on people’s advice
I can’t rely on pills

[Chorus]
I notice now
Things keep falling down
When they fall I still build them up
Hard when you don’t know-how
Somethings change
Yeah you know the deal
At the end of the day
I’m over that one still

[Verse 2]
Over that one
When I play shows I’m sober at none
Not from London know the accent
Not just talking loads of action
Is this music or is it acting?
One step forward then go backwards
Think it makes me over-anxious
Things can change it’s known to happen
I feel like I don’t need people’s help
And then when I think about it I’m proud I could’ve been someone else
All the things we done
All of the things that happened
How could I do this with anyone else when I know you back it?

[Chorus]
I notice now
Things keep falling down
When they fall I still build them up
Hard when you don’t know-how
Somethings change
Yeah you know the deal
At the end of the day
I’m over that one still

[Verse 3: Manga Saint Hilare]
Bare times I think what’s the point?
Do or dies a flip of the coin
I’ve gone too far to turn back so win or win is my only choice
I release songs they think it’s for them, it’s a cry for help but they missed the point
What’s mad is when I speak for them I feel like I lose my voice
But I can’t linger or dwell on things
Yesterday’s gone it’s been better since
Still outside and I’m settled in
Still more scared than I’ve ever been
Still feel blessed like I’ve never sinned
Am I going in circles for a peace that doesn’t exist?
I feel sick