GHOUL

[Verse 1]
Bitch I'm not okay and I think it really shows
I knew you never loved me, yeah you did it all for show
Pop molly all night now, I think that I can go
Rolling up a double life, smoking shit up on the low

[Chorus]
Yeah, these drugs aren't the same, when will I feel no pain?
Yeah, I feel lost again, I can't blame a damn thing
Bitch I am struggling, I'm so fucked in the brain
Will I ever be normal like I was back then?
That kid, he died, I'm glad it happened
I feel so damn alive man, this isn't the end
But I need to erase all the scars, all the sins
Now my mind is rewired, I'd do it again

[Verse 2]
Wait, need to hit rock bottom only knowing that I'm never going back to Hell, fuck that I'm showing
Ways, all the ways that I am growing from the pain that I'm not showing, slowly healing but I know that I can't
Stay, inside a mind that can't survive the thoughts of suicide except inside the eyes of others, do not lie you
Hate, the world around you, feeling lonely in a crowded room not knowing what the fuck is wrong with you so you
Question all the time that you spend inside your mind
Never really knowing, never really knowing why
Other people never liked you all they ever saw were sides
Never showing anyone the true life
Only lies of a man in his mind, feeling lonely all the time
So I prayed to a God, not the normal kind
I was born without sin but that changed over time

[Bridge]
The MDMA had rewired my brain and this is how I felt
Needless to say that I changed that day, I've turned into someone else

[Chorus]
Yeah, these drugs aren't the same, when will I feel no pain?
Yeah, I feel lost again, I can't blame a damn thing
Bitch I am struggling, I'm so fucked in the brain
Will I ever be normal like I was back then?
That kid, he died, I'm glad it happened
I feel so damn alive man, this isn't the end
But I need to erase all the scars, all the sins
Now my mind is rewired, I'd do it again