​fucking up

[Chorus: thebreathingbackwards, (guccihighwaters)]
Fucking up, I know it ain't news to you
(Fucking up, I know it ain't news to you)
But it sucks, knowing I got used to you
(But it sucks, knowing I got used to you)
And i think that this might be it
(And i think that this might be it)
I turn all the love in my life to shit
(I turn all the love in my life to shit)

[Verse 1: thebreathingbackwards]
Four fifteen, i got the shakes again, im used to it
Proper dose lamictal but anxiety abuses it
Useless as a safety net, it used to put my brain to rest
But now im wide awake, and i can't take it, grip a painful chest

And underneath: a heart, beaten down by all of my neglect
Try to swap my habits but im fossilized by my regret
Funny how the one thing that i thought could help, just let me down
Ill take it with a steady lip, and kiss the granite underground

[Chorus: thebreathingbackwards, (guccihighwaters)]
Fucking up, I know it ain't news to you
(Fucking up, I know it ain't news to you)
But it sucks, knowing I got used to you
(But it sucks, knowing I got used to you)
And i think that this might be it
(And i think that this might be it)
I turn all the love in my life to shit
(I turn all the love in my life to shit)

[Verse 2: thebreathingbackwards]
Im so sick of this, stitching up my eyes, dont wanna witness it
Unmotivated, so i won't make change, but ill still bitch at it
Thought that i could beat it if i kept it in and let it tire
It won't fucking die, it comes alive when i feel uninspired

And thats a lot, cuz i ain't felt alright in quite awhile
Seems like any safety that i had and i can't reconcile
A civil war inside my heart, my generals won't make amends
Im tapping out, and locking up, until the sorrow ends

[Bridge: guccihighwaters]
Looking for a better way out, no destruction
Anxiety keep me up when im stuck, no discussion
Not strong enough, i think im falling off
Would you catch me? im boutta take the jump

I fall for you again
Playing love like its pretend
Neglecting what you said
My attempt at self-defense

[Chorus: thebreathingbackwards, (guccihighwaters)]
Fucking up, I know it ain't news to you
(Fucking up, I know it ain't news to you)
But it sucks, knowing I got used to you
(But it sucks, knowing I got used to you)
And i think that this might be it
(And i think that this might be it)
I turn all the love in my life to shit
(I turn all the love in my life to shit)