Exorcism

[Dialogue]
We call upon the infinite power of the celestial beings
Lend us your righteous energy to vanquish the evil entities that reside within
Cleanse this tainted vessel that requests purification

[Intro]
Ghosts roam in the room / Demons feed within
I brood doom and gloom / They proceed to torment
They settle in and multiply by the day
There are so many of them / None feel any shame
They’re evil and don’t carе what the impact is
As if oblivious to their villainous actions
To engagе is a battle lost / Mind, body, and heart
I salvage what they haven’t yet shred apart
Should I begin dispensing this caged rage
This contained fury is ready to break the gate
Target particular areas / Challenge the creatures
Analyze / Strike / Overtake then secure
Time to hone in on the roots of my despair
Induce the panic and horrific events I refuse to share
Silence sits in the air / Thoughts are focusing in
The candles are lit / Let the exorcism commence

[Verse 1]
Manifestations of my rage, bitterness, and hatred
Aggregations of my aches, sadness, and loneliness
Became the world I knew with no chance of escape
I convinced myself it was a part of my cruel fate
First to disperse is the group of greed who seek
Attention and believe they need it to feel complete
Do you know what it is truly like to be alone
You feign depression while rejecting those who offer a home
Your heart was my prey, but you’re the predator
My chance / A delusion / Wasn’t considered a competitor
Previous encounters may have had ulterior motives
Since I’ve known you, I’ve been nothing except supportive
Mistakenly told you that inside and out you’re attractive
Perhaps, I was too anxious and my behavior was impulsive
From me you only heard compliments
You increased your negligence / Took for granted my kindness
How could you act so ghostly and ignore me randomly
Identify yourself as ghastly / You’re trashy / You don’t surpass me
The type to think you’re roses, but are only a stalk of thorns
The kind who see yourselves as angels, but instead of wings have horns
Always asking for favors / Never reliable
Responsive when convenient / Evasive when uncomfortable
I’m not afraid to call you out in a persuasive culture
That worships displays of vanity and promotes it to be nurtured
Accuse me of manipulation / You’re not accustomed to confrontation
Remove me without hesitation then block me from retaliation
Seldom do you retract or think twice about your decisions
Be consumed by the consequences of your condescension

[Verse 2]
Next to address is one the most prominent traumas
Nothing could’ve prepared me to live in that tundra
We fought / We argued / Somehow feelings stayed the same
On one side of the spectrum / The other drastically changed
Welcome to my perspective / You may not respect it cause you neglected
To walk into my world and acknowledge what I endured
How could something that was meant to be miraculous
End up being so disastrous
In the beginning I was mendable and willing to modify
It was a fresh experience and would openly compromise
Remember how I tried to communicate my insecurities
I was met with “Don’t mention it again or I will leave”
Do you recollect the countless times your past would come back
It was a difficult situation that resulted in me being attacked
Steaming with anger you justified and compared me to former partners
And allowed interactions from people who interfered with our future
Part of me was afraid, another felt it was disrespect
Attempted coping with the ordeal led to being emotional
I had meltdowns, admittedly, but you were catastrophic
For my few developed connections you acted so jealous
Strictly monogamous still your behavior was outrageous
Those you saw as menaces / Removed without a second guess
I cut loose threads without a bargain or negotiation
I ensured you had no competition / Any risks I got rid of them
Kept the rest at a safe distance / Made them aware of your existence
Soon nobody remained while you gained companions
So what was appreciation for my indulgent devotion
Invasions of privacy / Crossed lines of violation
Repeating accusations and absurd assumptions
Explain your hesitations to erase anyone who made me doubtful
Or tell me why you felt compelled to compare me and be so spiteful
The excuse you gave was “I can’t control myself when I’m angry”
Even if given genuinely gifts don’t alter the negativity
You told me I’m lucky because you chose me out of many
A book full of your feelings and nothing that read “I’m guilty”
I woke up everyday wishing there was another I could embrace
A different figure / New face / Want you completely replaced
There was a high price to pay when things didn’t go your way
As much as I wanted to break away / The pressure made me stay
There was a sigh of relief whenever you would depart
A ton of burden accumulated was lifted off
Although the reprieve was bleak and brief
At times I couldn’t breathe cause of the tragedies
Once upon a time I couldn’t speak about you enough
The world knew of your presence probably too much
Want to know why I stopped mentioning you / It’s cause I’m ashamed
Negated to bring you up and avoided using your name
In our arguments you made me so aggravated / I was decimated
Throwing each of my flaws out frequently / I was humiliated
Honesty led to consequences and lowered my defenses
Sinking in abysmal trenches increased my resentments
You’ve ruined every memory we’ve made / The scars are engraved
In each crevice of my brain is a permanent stain
Have you heard me? What do you think?
Are you happy or full of fury telling everybody
The person you reflect is an inclusive vest
You’re delusional, opinionated, narcissistic, at your best
For far too long you’ve been my main source of stress
Begone / I will not continue to be someone you possess

[Verse 3]
To various foes that are lesser, but should be extinguished
I haven’t forgotten you or how you’ve caused me anguish
You make me feel alienated / Remind me I’m hated
Annoy me when infuriated / Bother me period
Still just a few of the many who terrorize me daily
I’m just getting started and about to surprise plenty
You expressed yourselves leisurely / Are you comfortable now
It’s my turn to tear you down until you are permanently underground
Apparently you can find peace knowing I can’t rest at ease
Never came forth to concede or deliver an apology
So self righteous, such hypocrites, gleaming with arrogance
Siphoned from my confidence / Choke on your ignorance
If you have vast intellects then why so incognizant
This damage can’t lead to happiness / I’m overly cautious
Notice the wall I built / Who supplied the resources
Are you mauled by guilt / Don’t deny what remorse is
I guess when a multitude of people inflate your egos
It’s just not possible to be wrong or to be shallow
I confess, I’m not perfect, I should’ve spoken up earlier
Instead of letting it grow to this point of no return
I was always the one who apologized
Reluctantly, I pushed aside my pride
There were certain situations I could’ve handled differently
And several acts I could’ve done with more sincerity
What if I just gave in / Stayed your puppet
Behaved human / What would come from it
In my experience I’m cursed / Destiny seems preset
Can I conquer it or is it dictated by my biggest threat?
Myself