Drowning

[Verse 1]
I don't know why I get mad
Thinkin' bout things I've already said
Thinking I should prolly be dead
Eyes closed in a coffin listening to mum, sis and dad
Maybe that's all that I had
Am I really livin' life right with the fam?
Am I livin' life like the best that I can
Maybe I'll die when I'm gone they'll be sad
But I won't go cause they're all that I have
And I know that they need me they know who I am
I love them to death and at deaths where I am
I wanna escape now that I can
But I'll never let go now she needs me now man

[Verse 2]
Yeah
Lately I’ve been felling lonely
A feeling I don't wanna own
I should have 6 thousand people below
Whilst I sit in a throne
And suicide will finally leave my head
But reality is I just feel so dead
''kill yourself'' they fucking said
As I lay in my own death bed
Suicide will actually leave me
Deep down inside im sad im leaving
At least I’ll be free
To be whoever I wanna be
No more choices
No more voices
No more depression
No more sad expressions
Cause I will be in the heavens

[Chorus]
What do I do now
I feel so fucking drowned
I need someone to pull me out
I’m drowned in hurt and doubt
It’s as If no one can hear me shout
I scream so fucking loud
Can u hear me fucking now

All this pain, I'm going insane
What the hell is going on inside my brain
Inside my veins
I don’t care what you say
My time to stay
Is now forbade

[Verse 3]
Tired everyday
Can’t fake it no more for the fakes
Depression can be faced
But not with you all in my face
Doing my own thing
Rewriting my own resume
I forgave and I forgot
But still your actions never stopped
Can't see the bigger picture
Made it harder to reconsider
Always telling lectures
But they never made it better
Now I'm done and gone
There's no need to write a letter
Couldn't stay another day
I felt way to out of place
I Guess love can be replaced
After your battle with my depression
Left me feeling worse so much reflection
Suicides is not an option
But life already is my coffin
Life has ups and downs
But even up I still can frown
Outside i play it cool
I guess I'm not see through and
When I spoke the truth
You turned it down without a clue
Days without you I admit I feel more blues
But days with you left me feeling like a fool
Sick and tired of being used this is my life to pick and choose