Darkness

[Verse 1]
Hey depression it’s been about a week
You sit around in my head and push on my heart until it’s weak
Are you just going to come back every single day of my life?
Are you gonna keep pushing me every day towards suicide?
You give me so much temptation so much irritation
Most of the time I can’t even keep a conversation
Are ever going to stop this manipulation?
You whisper in my ear and I really wanna listen
I want to get rid of you my brain really needs a fixing
Every girl I kiss I swear she can taste you
Depression please step away so I can face you
Do you want me to die?
Do you really wanna take my life?
People say you’re a feeling but you’re a disease
You push me so far that I drop to my knees
You keep me awake every night
You tap on my buttons until I drop and cry
Depression I can’t handle this pain for the rest of my life

[Verse 2]
It’s to simple to be different
I’m with it if you are with it
I’ve been battling my heart
The dark, and all the wicked
I don’t like the way I’m living
I’m really close to quitting
Regret some of my decisions
Made choices without precision
Almost ended up in prison
I can’t focus on the energy
On anything I’m tripping
After everything inevitably we wonder there’s tension
And finally begin to see
I’m mentally defensive
Not to mention my intentions
We’re richer in the beginning
You tend to lose your motivation
Get stuck up in situations
Every move you made you waited
Good and bad are segregated
In my heart I know what’s right what’s wrong and how change it

[Verse 3]
Wish I could start over
Have another life
Closer to getting that closure
More reason to pick up a knife
But I won’t I’ve promised myself
I’ll make it right
Whether it means looking my demons
Dead in the eye
I’m not scared to die
And I will not lie
Sometimes it gets hard in the night
But I will not give up the fight
There’s some things I love I have to keep in sight
And as long as got you with me I don’t wanna die
So let’s get it together me and you side by side

Let's just place this all together now
We've been dreaming for a little while
I don't wanna be awake
Be awake..
Let me know I'll be okay
Be okay..

Don't get me wrong I've been asleep for days
Counting every method in my head until I get it straight
Demons always speak my name
Tell me if I've gone insane
But lately it's just all the same
Forgive me if I take no blame

I'm an adolescent waste of space
Wide awake through different dreams
I don't wanna feel a thing
Shifting through my essence
Trying to find a different meaning
I don't think you get the picture
Let me paint it clearly..

[Verse 4]
In my helpless rage against humanity
So lonely cause no one could bare thy
Tempting In so many ways I feel empty
Pistol on lock wishing it wasn’t on safety
Could you blame me
Started learning when people started hating
Hard for me to say this I just can’t change it
Walk with me under the shadows
Hard to see myself in the mirror
With all the glass broke
Becomes more hassle then
I ever asked for
But never bothers the cash flow
King of the castle
Glass half empty
Or the glass is half full
Shit Just happy to even
Have a glass at all
When people are being so bashful

[Verse 5]
You ever sit around just reminiscing?
Looking back at all your past decisions
Wondering what’s led to your current condition
What’s the reason you’ve become so distant
You ever sit around analysing every little detail?
Thinking how you’ve coped with shit and not ending up off the rails
Tryna understand the complexities we face and still prevail
Picturing the times before those memories stung like a bee’s tale
You ever think about the days
When all was going your way
You wish you could’ve stayed
But that’s just not how things played
Out
Not how things played out
But look how far you’ve came wow
Still shit’s just not the same now

[Outro]
Yeah, yeah that’s not how things played out