Dear Mother

[Verse 1]
You hit me up tellin' me I don't deserve the life you gave me, well
Maybe it's the truth and I been roomin' since a baby, hell
I've been elevated since the 80's from this crazy spell
Try to meditate, but I saw Satan in my safest realm
Momma says I'm fake and I ain't never been through any Hell
Everything I say is just a way for me to sin for wealth
Anything I make, she be ashamed that I ain't livin' well
Disrespect your name when I spit flame and I will see a cell
You tell me I'm funny, I remind you of the old you
The one supportin' everyone before they come dethrone you
Assassinate your character, no parents to control you
Starin' out your window, blowin' endo from my own view
I will not surrender to your methods I'm opposed to
Refuse to be a victim of the sick that never owns you
[?] ya actin' just how you supposed to
Been so motherfuckin' long that I don't really even know you
I wish we could talk, you know, act like fuckin' adults, but
You gotta come to grips with the fact that everything ain't my fault, huh
I learned to turn on my energy whenever melody happens to [cross flux ?]
Get me [in but it ?] different get a rhythm right off of the riddle then bust, hush

[Bridge]
Remember the time it was rainin' so hard
I was runnin' on air just to make it to your arms
I couldn't see nothin' in front of me, felt like a [?] there was a pause please
Catch me, don't you forget me [?] harm
I love you momma, I just hate what I've seen you become
Even though you hid it well, I wasn't mad at the drugs
Or how my dad was good for nothin' but [ejac'in' and dunks ?]
I stand imagine through the madness livin' happy as fuck. Brain

[Interlude]
Someone who gets you going through a midlife crisis and you think you're in some gang [?]
And some little Brainsick fuckin' cult
And my fuckin' page
And just gonna fuckin' hold up in court, you dummy?
Oooh, [?] fuckin' drugs, okay?
I'll take these [?], sweetie
And you'll never dox me
Okay, just post it on there
That's fuckin' abuse and slander if you come and do it
Why you wanna join in now because I won't have nothin' to do with your triflin'
You can't [go soft on someone ?]
Down down down
Down down down down
Down down down
Down down down down

[Verse 2]
Not too many know this, so let me dig up one of my secrets since you
Keep bringin' this shit up all in my e-mail for no reason
I was molested up in the 6th grade 'cause my aunt's dad was a demon
Watchin' the Tyson fight, fell sleep, woke up to this nigga touchin' my penis
I was so sick to my stomach, I panicked, I couldn't confront him, I ran in the bathroom
I vomit, I manage to get it together [but what there be different enough ? ?] your problems
I opened the door, when I walk out I said I was sick
I need to call my momma so I pick up the phone and I sit
I was scared that any minute he would flip then throw a fit
You finally answered, "Can you come and get me?", 's all that left my lips
I said it quick 'cause I don't want to let him know this what it is
You never heard my nervous tone, but I can tell he did
So you been tellin' me you were busy, call [Zanetta ?] for a lift
Probably was thinkin', "My poor baby, he just always homesick"
Someone could send me, I feel this is it, should I go pick up a knife? Think I can get it to stick?
Think over twice, lookin' him up in his eye, watchin' him ball up his fist, shit
"Hello", "Hey, [Zanetta ?], can you come get me, please
My momma's on the north side, it'd be more time if she leaves
She told me to call you so I called you, can you please come get me
I'll be out front, everything's packed up", she didn't ask nothin' but the street

[Bridge]
Remember the time it was rainin' so hard
I was runnin' on air just to make it to your arms
I couldn't see nothin' in front of me, felt like a [?] there was a pause please
Catch me, don't you forget me [?] harm
I love you momma, I just hate what I've seen you become
Even though you hid it well, I wasn't mad at the drugs
Or how my dad was good for nothin' but [ejac'in' and dunks ?]
I stand imagine through the madness livin' happy as fuck. Brain

[Outro]
Do you have a clue what you're doing?
No, seriously
And you're gonna use your [?] to try to validate me?
You know what I realize?
Our whole relationship is hopeless
They say you ain't shit if you don't have a relationship with your mother, but what you fail to realize is I've tried
I've given this woman more than enough chances
More than enough chances, I got no more chances left in me
That's alright. Do you realize how fuckin' sick you are?