Child Support

You're fucking others
While dad's paying for it
I try my best to forget
But I'm reminded by the stench
Wearing the same clothes
Third week in a row now
I haven't seen our money for years
You truly taught me all I know
Never trust anyone, truly know that we're all alone
It might be wrong and the reason I'm rotting
I know I'm God, I'm Satan, I'm nothing

What I am is not what I would have wished for and
Everything I've done has been for nothing
So see me for what I am
What I became and I have tried
I have wanted and struggled

Take me back to the days before it all began
Before he screwed you and left you for that stupid cunt
Was she worth it?
Or just another thoughtless impulse?

"I forgive you"
Do you forgive me?

I'm drawing short straws by the hour
Trapped in a small dark room with no way out
I've got it up to my neck and now I can't breathe
I think I'm ready, just take me back

What you see is just my fake reality
My kind of self control
Thinking that it would help
That I could be better, and I have prayed
I have wanted and struggled

"I forgive you"
Do you forgive me?

Take me back to the days before it all begun
Before he screwed you and left us for that stupid cunt
Was she worth it?
Or just another thoughtless impulse?