Calcify

Are we sick, just rotten to the core with this
Anxiety hollowed out
What's left of this empty shell
I try to I try to I try to understand

When you came to me with an illness
I didn't want to believe it was true so I just stared
Tears filled your eyes as I couldn't respond
I didn't want to lose you again, no not like this

I promised I’d be right back, yeah but I wasn’t cus I was running down the alleyways chased by
The shadows on the walls with the resemblance of my best friend but I knew it wasn't him cus hе was trying to drag
Me back into this place wherе I hated myself but you know it's a joke cus you know I still do
Shoulder hits the plaster, breaks through the walls, reality seems to just stall

Fractal of lights burst through the window as my vision starts to blur
No longer have a fucking place here so I drown in mental hurt
I put a knife to my stomach and I just try to push it through
The fucking blade snaps in half and im just like what the fuck is true

Watch the bruise marks, start to shine through
Watch me collapse, the love I pursue
I see your blank stare, it's like they broke you
The medication didn't work, this person isn't you

The devil smiles back, im easily subdued
He was my best friend and to the side he threw
Best intentions, we watch as you withdrew
It's hard to admit, that I couldn't save you

I watch your hair start to fall
Fake a smile it will be fine
Your ribcage starts to show through as you walk
But you are so perfect to me

You’re haunted by this
So scared to admit that you might not survive
Yeah cus hope is your enemy
You don't want to let down the ones you love

Watch impure injections enter your veins, see your face just wither away
I try to explain that your gaunted cheeks are so pretty but you cave
Threw fists at my face from the burst of the anger try to explain that it wasn't you
Its this doubt that's embedded in your veins as the doctor says you might not make it through

Stage two to the cancer, no I couldn't answer all these questions that plague your thoughts
Torn between a decision of do I kill my insides just to hope I live a bit more
But you know ill hold your hand, know that ill be there till the end
Yeah no cus im never gonna give up on you, I will be the hope that you'll be alright