Body Dysmorphia Hidden In The Leaves

Naruto isn’t a boy /
Naruto becomes the hokage /

is looking to be held broth to noodle /
to soften / to fill a bowl big enough

to make someone feel loved /
to get to be feminine and also succeed at doing so /

Show me a boy who transforms themselves
feminine and I will undress my dysmorphia /

show you my youngest trans-self gender
identity as being worthy of companionship

identity as knowing yourself / show me
a boy who dresses as a woman and finds joy

and I will show you my past / will become
stealth and hide in the shadow of my body /

dysmorphia iron / maiden myself
noodle bowl / my mouth is a pout /

let me suck with/out apprehension and I will

canonically Naruto uses a ninja art
dubbed “sexy no jutsu” at age twelve

and I research how to tuck into nothing /
canonically Naruto uses “sexy no jutsu”

and was shunned for having a demon
locked inside themself until

proven useful to praise /
canonically Naruto uses “sexy no jutsu”

and still got to fall into the arms of a lover
who saw them as a whole self / hold me

as I art myself into the body I need to have
to make it through the night / bless the ninja

that hides in the forest even when the leaves die /
bless the body held through fire and took the burns
and the bones and turned them / into safe haven /
sanctuary city my blood /

hidden in the leaves / a country of closets /

bless the world with room for girls like us / who know
the shape of their belly best in shadows /

limp like noodles / mouths full / broth pursed lips /
I don’t need you to show me something

I can just as easily perform / watch
as I smoke bomb my body booby-trap /

to make yourself into one million women
is a forbidden art so forbid me into something

unwritten / bind my body into a sealed scroll /
teach me how to gesture myself into permanent

suppleness and I will / what doesn’t kill you
makes you stronger but I would love to be

the soft and whole noodle / true / even if
for only a moment it meant that being me is seen as an artform.

I don’t need you to love me as I am
if it means you won’t let me
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grow into what I need to be to live longer.