Zen

[Verse 1: BZZY]
Yes, word to the pregnancy test
That she left on the steps
A reality check
I had to, woosah for a sec
She’s afraid to tell her dad cause he wouldn’t accept
But it is what it is, now what could we expect
What am I to do?
My mama didn’t raise me to murder no baby
So we gonna have to see it through
At least I love her
At least I love her
I don't think I could choose a better mother
Perfect time to start thinking of someone other than me
Now let it breath

[Chorus: Leon Thomas]
Of course I’m afraid
But I’ll find my way
Every night up I pray
Woosah, I’m zen
Woosah, I’m zen
Woosah, I’m zen
You made me feel again
Woosah, I’m zen
Woosah, I’m zen
Woosah I'm zen

[Verse 2: BZZY]
She scared
I'm scared but I can't show it
I fucked alot of things up but I can't blow this
This ain't what we planned for
My mama didn't raise me to murder no babies
So I'ma have to man up
If I gotta get a job to supply for the fam
Then i'ma do what I gotta do
I’m the man
I ain’t got time to be sitting home laying
Even if I gotta go and drive Uber’s in the AM
My heart dropped when I heard a heartbeat
There’s a little baby inside you made from me
Oh my, this just changed my whole life
Staring at the sonogram I realized
That God was in plain sight the whole time

[Chorus: Leon Thomas]
Of course I’m afraid
But I’ll find my way
Every night up I pray
Woosah, I’m zen
Woosah, I’m zen
Woosah, I’m zen
You made me feel again
Woosah, I’m zen
Woosah, I’m zen
Woosah I'm zen

[Verse 3: BZZY]
Three way mama like "mama I got news!"
"You about to be a granny"
Mama took it better than I assumed
Mama cried
Like she finally found purpose again
It’s like, I don’t gotta see her hurting again
I know me leaving home at 18 ain’t been the easiest
Chasing something that wasn’t sure but I believed in it
And she’s calling like "did you sleep enough? have you eaten yet?"
I called my cousin Abby and she’s like, "you keeping it?"
She’s fussing, I’m cussing
I hate financial discussions
She’s dissing, I’m wishing
This shit turned out a little different
Can’t let this fuck Up my vision
Thought you was down for my mission
But we in it together so let’s get it
But we in it together so let’s get it
It's too late to regret it
So we might as well
Live with it