Before I Jump

[Verse: BZZY]
Before I Jump, I've got to let the truth live
'Cause I've gotten to the point where lies are useless
I tell my story knowing somebody can use this
I'm trying to bring clarity to confusion
I'm sorry momma, ya' baby boy wasn't innocent
I was in this shit, I was hittin' licks
And to my unborns, I wish I stuck around to say I loved ya'll
That's what this songs for
And to my baby momma's, baby momma's father
I'm sorry for all the hurt I gave to your daughter
I'm sorry karma took advantage of your kindness
I had to look in the mirror to see inside it
I had to go through depression so I could write it
It's hard to deal with the pressure when you in silence
It's easy to lie to you in the light
It's harder to lie to me in the dark
The stardom did something to my heart
The energy was different in the start
Where did I loose myself?
If my tux wasn't designer, I would shoot myself
But death by a pistol is not a sight
Before I Jump I want to see the lights
If heaven's real then we live twice and we die once
So, let me get this right
What a view from the 54th floor
Champagne poured to forget the pain stored
Grammys in New York, I just won my first award
I would slit my wrist but my suit is Tom Ford
Hold on
Let me bask in this moment
54th floor, I could feel the curtains blowing
The hurt is showing
Can't let them know it
I hope you get this letter in the morning
This that Kurt Co feeling
Robin Williams
I'm tired of playing victim
That's why I'm on this balcony reminiscing
Views from the 54th floor
I turned my life into my vision board
I did it all
What more?
Good Luck
I love you all