​winter semester

[Verse 1]
Since I met you
I been tripping over thoughts
In my head
Replaying memories in my bed
Aggressive or pacifist
I'm getting the hang of it
Trading an arm for a leg

[Pre-Chorus]
You're my angel heaven sent
Dressed in robes of violet
Wait, I got the wrong message
Guess I misinterpreted
Still, I need your helping hand
To navigate the foreign land
And the cognitive dissonance
At least I'll die here with my friends

[Chorus 1]
'Cause wintеr semester
Has got mе hopin' for better
'Cause I say shit without thinkin'
It's got me stayin' up drinkin'
If I could undo bad timing
Then maybe you'd still be trying
We'd never say hello again
Because I'd never leave your side

[Verse 2]
Since I met you
I been seeing green in crimson places
I been waxing poetic in silence
You don't listen to my songs
Just dial tones
Leave my efforts on read

'Cause every part of me believes if I keep the feats
For attention, then you'll mention adoration
Maybe in a future conversation
And maybe I'll see you on vacation

But not in real life, on your story
I was about to reach out
But I'm fucking boring
Never made it out of this stupid city
Never took a chance 'cause it seemed too risky

And I don’t give a fuck if you think I'm clingy
If you never want to tell me when you're feeling shitty
I accidentally strike a nerve
You assume the worst, you ignore my words
I say sorry first

You know I ain't tryna be irritating
It's just I haven't seen you since graduation
Our summer in the blink of an eye
An ebb in the tide
And we're back living our separate lives

And only for a moment will we ever see
A glimpse of each other's eternity
You gave me a story to keep in my pocket
Tucked under your sleeve, my heart in a locket

And two in the morning it aches to be free
Of the best and the worst of our memories
Sublimate the pain in a melody
And I sincerely hope you’re happy

'Cause you were lonely, a lost soul too relatable
By now, I keep you safe unconditional
But would it kill you to call? Not even once in the fall
Guess that's what I get for wanting anything at all

I know you're busy with all your shit in college
New friends, no time for old connections
And all the dozen other reasons that you tell yourself
Catch you never, I guess I'll see you in hell

[Chorus 2]
'Cause winter semester
Has got me hopin' for better
'Cause I say shit without thinkin'
It's got me stayin' up drinkin'
If I could undo bad timing
Then maybe you'd still be trying
We'd never say hello again
Because I'd never leave your side

Romantic rejection
Just gives me visceral reactions
Whenever I see it happen
To too many of my friends
'Cause it reminds me of us and
Everything that we weren't
We'll never say hello again
Cause you're no longer by my side, yeah

[Bridge]
I had a dream
Forgot who you were
Couldn't pick out your face
In a sea of strangers

And when I woke up
I wish it was true
But I still know your name
Even if I don't know you

Oh, just look at this mess
If it's not your fault then why am I in pieces
Oh, your voice overhead
Don't even got courtesy, you leave me for dead

[Chorus 2]
'Cause winter semester
Has got me hopin' for better
'Cause I say shit without thinkin'
It's got me stayin' up drinkin'
If I could undo bad timing
Then maybe you'd still be trying
We'd never say hello again
Because we'd never say goodbye

Romantic rejection
Just gives me visceral reactions
Whenever I see it happen
You catch me cryin' like a bitch
'Cause it reminds me of us and
Of the fact that we couldn't
Put aside our differences
Now you're no longer by my side, no

[Outro]
Take me far away from the sovereignty of your throne
I'm better off when I don't put your love on a pedestal
And though it never feels like I'll get it right
I don't need your voice to tell the stories I'll write