Wasn’t Real

You aren't the first target I've caught
I have been cursed just by the god
I am an atheist but I look up
I am the craziest, know I shook luck
Yo
My face is just fucked up, bitch
Fall down, look at how I'm stitched
Costume? This be the realest shit
Watched a brother getting all slit
All these kids are fucking dumb
Where the hell did they come from
Parents raising the biggest scums
Someone gotta make em numb
Wait
Is it real, does this shit exist
I've been hearing thеm falling in the mist
I have been, I have been just gaslit
I'vе been going about, getting, making twists
Look at me, hoe, my hair's just a mess
My mental stability is all a fucking wreck
Streaming myself cutting and slit my neck
I couldn't care bout your problems any less
I'ma commit right in front of your face
You don't wanna live with a disgrace
Am I right or you tryna play
I don't care, won't let you fuck up my brain

I've been seeing ghosts when I was alive
Started to talk to me when I was nine
How I've been feeling, just read my rhymes
I don't care about your worthless life
I remember when no one hitting my phone
But now that I've grown
These fuckers don't leave me alone
Like bitch just cut me to the bone
Just mixing producing and writing my songs
Til I decide on the day I'm gone
Look at the people I've drawn
It won't be long til something goes wrong
Won't be long til you see a bloody pencil
Cus accept it bitch, I am not special
I am not worthy of living this shit
I am not worthy of spitting no shit

[Outro Verse]
Swear that I got no damn info
I swear I'ma schizo
Fucked up like I'm a black widow
As venomous as it gets
The venom is all that I spit
Think I was thrown in a pit
I think it's all just a myth
My demons just tell me to quit
Telling me I am just saddened
Telling me it never happened
Never had talents
Doing bad actions
I have a habit
It's all too tragic
But that is a classic
But maybe I just don't have it