This song is my take on optimistic nihilism – nothing matters and that’s beautiful. I wanted to write about how much I’ve been through, and feeling like I’ve been on autopilot living with depression, but at least things are looking up when you’re seeing it from rock bottom.
[Verse 1]
I come home to lights off, missed calls, don't even bother
Can't sleep, can't eat, I'm underwater
There's nothing that you can say, I've always felt this way
Left out, leftovers on the counter
Feels like I'm only sinking further
There's nothing that you can say, just chemicals in my brain
[Pre-Chorus]
There's a little voice running through my head
Reminding me of the stupid things I said
All the mistakes I've ever made
Playing over again
[Chorus]
On the upside, everything's gonna bе just fine
I'm already dead on thе inside
Nobody can hurt me now
On the outside, having the time of my life
Hanging with people I don't like
Nobody can hurt me now
Nobody can hurt me now, ooh
Nobody can hurt me now, ooh
Nobody can hurt me
[Verse 2]
Bloodshot, no tears, at least it's something
Still here, didn't even see you coming
I don't like the way it feels but at least I can say it's real
[Pre-Chorus]
There's a little voice running through my head
Reminding me of the stupid things I said
I let the monsters in my bed, they say
[Chorus]
On the upside, everything's gonna be just fine
I'm already dead on the inside
Nobody can hurt me now
On the outside, having the time of my life
Hanging with people I don't like
Nobody can hurt me now
Nobody can hurt me now, ooh
Nobody can hurt me now, ooh
Nobody can hurt me
[Outro]
Now, ooh
Nobody can hurt me now, ooh
Nobody can hurt me now