The second track on artist Mothica’s EP forever fifteen, this song is about abuse from her youth pastor according to her tiktok (mothicamusic). The artist has described it as “a song about revenge”.
Mothica released a music video for the song on March 19th 2021.
[Intro]
I'm a buzzkill, I'm the broken one
I'm a victim of the things you've done
I'm a phantom of who I thought I was
Ever since you, ever since you
[Verse 1]
I don't talk about it
Unless I make a joke about it
That's just what you want, huh?
That's just what you want
Walking on the ceiling
Gettin' used to never feeling
You're still having fun, huh?
And I don't trust no one
[Pre-Chorus]
I won't keep your secrets now
You can't keep my volume down
[Chorus]
I'm a buzzkill
Gonna kill your high 'cause I'm pissed off
I think you know why, and you're scared now
'Cause receipts don't lie
Ever since you, ever since you
Fucked up, haven't made a sound
Got me upset now I'm gettin' loud
Better watch me burn this whole place down
Ever since you, ever since you
[Verse 2]
Know what you did
Don't let it happen again, I pray for the kid
That calls you a friend
You pull them right in, told them their sins
Holy motherfucker, do you have something to say?
'Cause this is the beginning of the price you're gonna pay
[Pre-Chorus]
I won't keep your secrets now
You can't keep my volume down
[Chorus]
I'm a buzzkill
Gonna kill your high 'cause I'm pissed off
I think you know why, and you're scared now
'Cause receipts don't lie
Ever since you, ever since you
Fucked up, haven't made a sound
Got me upset now I'm gettin' loud
Better watch me burn this whole place down
Ever since you, ever since you
Ever since you, ever since you
buzzkill was written by David Burris & Eva Honey & Alexandra Veltri & MOTHICA.
buzzkill was produced by David Burris.
This is a song about reclaiming power taken from you. In my case, it’s about the my first sexual experience being an assault from my youth pastor. I’m finally sharing my story even if it makes me a buzzkill.