Trauma

Voicemail: "It's been almost a year Dylan, you need to grow up and get over it because honestly everyone else has... you are literally 20 years old, get over it."

"Bond, bond bond"

Ruined everything, i'm a shell of who i once was
Because i gave you all of me, wasted my time, left in the dust
I try and try again, i can never forget
Falling in love, oh i couldn't pretend that this
Was something special, you had went and broken all of my trust
I think about the night, late call, didn't think it would еnd
Couldn't have said it any clearer, to thе day i can still hear what you said
You said that i had been the problem, and you didn't feel like solving a thing
Leave my life, out of sight while you leave me to drink away the sorrow, hope i die before tomorrow again

Don't get me wrong
I don't even give a fuck about the shit that you're on
Even though i'm steady trying to forget all of the songs
I don't think you ever cared, i know you put up a front
But now you've given it up

December feels like forever ago
Remember nights where i felt so alone
Bad weather, thought you would never be cold
You've got me, i'm so controlled
This trauma makes it much harder to grow
Don't wanna take to the bottle and fold
Take me away cause you're gone i suppose
I still miss you more than you know

It’s been two years since we ended
I never thought once we were friends since then
And you were always on the fence
Last time you hit me up, i was burying a friend, yeah
You said we’re still friends and you act like you don’t know me
When we were together i still felt like it was lonely
I’ve been moving on, i know i don’t need ya
Thought you left a sorry, you still walk around my head like athena
And i’ve been waiting for this wound to heal but i know it won’t
Your words cut me deep, cut me straight to the bone
I’m in a better space without you, yeah i did it on my own

December feels like forever ago
Remember nights where i felt so alone
Bad weather, thought you would never be cold
You've got me, i'm so controlled
This trauma makes it much harder to grow
Don't wanna take to the bottle and fold
Take me away cause you're gone i suppose
I still miss you more than you know