Train Station

I'm finna climb out this gutter, I'll survive for my brother
Interventions isn't working so I'm trying another
Sometimes I feel like I should cut ties with my mother
But the truth is it would kill her, she would die from the suffer
She's abusing liquor, pills and I'm just tryna love her
Cause I don't ever wanna see her go and die like a mother
Die like my father, drowning his liver and kidneys
I've got visions of winning but this depression is sickening
I'm at this job interview pretending I give a fuck
When I know I'm the next one up and nobody could fuck with us
Some days I just look in the mirror and think I'm stuck
RKTHHS till I'm gone and faded to rust
Fell in love with the devil, I'm starting to think it's lust
I had friends in the past that I used to think I would trust
Then they went ghost like face when the killa comes
All these verses is arenas, I picture them filling up
They call me Downtown but I', ready for all the ups
I've been low for a minute like clouds under the sun
I recorded this track in the parking lot of a train station
I needed that grind mode, I'm up on my grind homes
I knew that I'd fly home, in and out of a time zone
Strictly cause of my rhymes bro, I know that I shine yo
That ain't me being vain, I'm just manifesting my dreams
So I can make it all bloom like 92 Kurt Cobain
Nevermind
I went and married love, put a clip to my clever mind
Circumstantial evidence, something you'll never find
27 club, sell your soul just to get inside
12 roses on your grave, lay me down where the legends die

There were flowers all over the place
Gangsters have this thing about flowers
They think whoever sends the biggest arrangement cares the most
It was just like Sunny said it would be
Nobody cares
Nobody cares

Okay, I need you all to listen
This gon be a little different so I need all your attention
Let's go back to 8th grade, before I forget to mention
My grandma broke her hip, slid into straight dementia
My mom slipped to depression, I remember trains roaring
My heart and mind were warring, tryna stop the tears from pouring
It wasn't too long after, my mom cracked under pressure
Praying to a god whose picture sat up on her dresser
She couldn't understand why gram's memories up and left her
Imagine your own parent forgetting who you are
You too would end up on a stretcher
Fast forward two years? I'm 18 with no guidance
Middle fingers to the world, not even tryna hide it
Definition of defiance till one day I heard the silence
My soul was piling up the mileage, had to see the bigger picture
Got so used to being empty, had to fill my own pitcher
Started cutting off the fake, chopping heads off all the snakes
Had to do it for my sake now that everything's at stake
In the kitchen fixing plates, I was cooking while they ate
I was starving, had to wait, money up and now I'm straight