Rainy Days

Came up in these rainy days, I was holding water down
See the river flowing, it was pouring and I sorta drowned
Wrestle with my demons and I guess I gotta sort it out
Dealing with depression so I guess I got disorders now
See the tunnel, light a way but I don't wanna fight today
See the legend I would make, I think I'm bout a night away
Thinking as I lie awake, my heart was left inside a cage
If only I could find a way but I don't see no sight of grace
Take my memories and torch it, that's energy that I forfeit
This rain's leaking like faucets, I got skeletons in closets
Now they getting supplicated, tryna come up from the basement
All my life I sucked at patience, I won't be another waiting
Problem is I want it, they tell me I'm too young to fall
I'm bleeding from my lungs, I crawl until I breakout from the wall
From the place I dwell I'm living, from the pits of hell I'm spittin
Everything I'm dealt is written, now it's time to tell the difference

Raised up in the ghetto, as a kid always wanted more
Racing up the stairs tryna reach the highest floor
Moving out, no moving up, half a dozen different cribs
Finally started eating, now it's sticking to my ribs
No explaining how I lived, just wouldn't do it justice
Pain became my substance, the music was my compass
Found something that I trusted cause if I'm being honest
The closest people leave you and that's something I can promise
Life was always crumbling, emotions I was juggling
Stomach tied in knots, the hunger kept it rumbling
Everything I ever had, I lost it overnight
Trying not to lose my shit seemed like a never ending fight
Still from time to time the side effects will reach the surface
Constantly get nervous that I"ll never find my purpose
But every time I hear these beats I get another chance
Cause the day this music stops will be the night I end this dance