They Don’t Even Know

[Intro]
Uh, uh
Mh, mh

[Chorus]
They don't even know (Ye-yeah)
I'm dealing with trauma
It's become a part of me
They don't even know (Ye-yeah)
I have PTSD
A pain that'll never leave
They don't even know (Ye-yeah)
That my heart doesn't beat
I'm tryna find a remedy
They don't even know (No)
That I could hardly sleep (Yeah)
Because I see you in my dreams

[Verse 1]
Yeah, always see you in my dreams
I think I need to wake up
I just wish I could move on
'Cause I don't wanna stay stuck
The voices in my head's loud
They never seem to stay shut
Overthink 'til I can't sleep
Paranoid, so I stay up
Always lost in my thoughts again
Showcase pain to my audience
Watch me rise 'til I fall again
Hate my mind 'cause it's fraudulent
Always swimmin' in doubt
I can't ever get out of it
Women want me for clout
Now I'm raising my walls again
Biggest fear's blowing up
Before reducin' the trauma
'Cause all of that added stress will only add to the problem
I got a lotta money
It doesn't fix anything
Want someone to love me, 'cause
Then that would mean everything

[Pre-Chorus]
Always feeling high
And then I'm feeling down again
Tryna find the source
Don't know what the problem is (Ye-yeah)
Why am I alone?
And, lost the ones I started with
They don't even know
That I'm getting tired of this

[Chorus]
They don't even know (Ye-yeah)
I'm dealing with trauma
It's become a part of me
They don't even know (Ye-yeah)
I have PTSD
A pain that'll never leave
They don't even know (Ye-yeah)
That my heart doesn't beat
I'm tryna find a remedy
They don't even know (No)
That I could hardly sleep
Because I see you in my dreams

[Verse 2]
Yeah, my left arm's filled with tattoos
When really those are just scars
I got 'em during bad moods
Or whenever life was hard
Always used a distraction
From all the pain in my heart
Never found satisfaction
From getting paid for my art
It's a ridiculous trade-off
That only seems to worsen
'Cause money doesn't pay off
When you're a broken person
It hurts when some people think
My music's music itself
When really it's my diary
I literally cry for help
I'm overlooked, I'm disregarded
I'm insecure, I'm broken-hearted
I feel unsteady, the pressure's heavy
I'm getting tired of bein' an artist
Need rehabilitation, a reset from all of this
I'm at the point of breaking
When's the end to all of this?

[Pre-Chorus]
Always feeling high
And then I'm feeling down again
Tryna find the source
Don't know what the problem is (Yeah)
Why am I alone?
And, lost the ones I started with
They don't even know
That I'm getting tired of this (O-oh)

[Chorus]
They don't even know (Ye-yeah)
I'm dealing with trauma
It's become a part of me
They don't even know (Ye-yeah)
I have PTSD
A pain that'll never leave
They don't even know (Ye-yeah)
That my heart doesn't beat
I'm tryna find a remedy
They don't even know (No)
That I could hardly sleep
Because I see you in my dreams