Several Years

[Verse 1]
Lately all I feel is pain
Feels like my heart doesn't beat the same
I wanna give up and I just feel stuck in a life that I know I cannot change
I'm really lonely and feel drained
Sometimes I feel like a mistake
I just sit and dwell in my trauma
My life's full of problems, I feel like I might break
Tried to move on, but I just can't
Breakdown after breakdown and somedays
I wish I could run away just to escape
And feel at ease even if it means one day
Where did my life go wrong?
I was a happy teen and now I'm an adult
Who's sad as hell and always at a loss
No one could tell I'm drowning in my thoughts
I'm still lost tryna find purposе
After all these yеars, I'm still searching
Hope you forgive me for being a burden
Self-love is something that I'm still learning
And I know I lie when I tell you I'm fine
'Cause nobody knows I'm struggling inside
Sorry if you see me cry
It's just I finally realized

[Chorus]
It's been several years
Since I felt okay, I'm losing my way and
It's been several years
Since I've been on meds, I still feel depressed and
It's been several years
Since I felt alive, there's no tears to cry and
It's been several years
Since I had a friend, they came and went

[Verse 2]
Lately, I feel so depressed
Tried to get help, but I'm still a mess
I don't ever rest, I guess I'm stressed
Got my head down, hands gripping on my neck
Did I take my last breath?
Did I walk my last step?
I'm alive, but inside I am dead
Look, I lied, I'm not fine 'cause my mind is a wreck
I saw pictures of me in elementary
I don't remember teachers ever telling me
I'd be an adult who senses people's energy
Being an empath attracts those who lack empathy
When I look back, my past shows me bad memories
Plus, it's so sad, I had to withstand everything
All for my last ex, damn, thought you'd stand next to me
You stabbed my back, and that hurt me bad mentally
It definitely changed me, but I forgive you
I understand now that you had your own issues
Your fear of abandonment really convinced you
That you weren't enough for the love I would give you
I tried, but I broke myself tryna fix you
And I feel hurt that you couldn't commit to
Me or the love I would give you
Nobody knows what I been through

[Chorus]
It's been several years
Since I felt okay, I'm losing my way and
It's been several years
Since I've been on meds, I still feel depressed and
It's been several years
Since I felt alive, there's no tears to cry and
It's been several years
Since I had a friend, they came and went