The-Realization

[Verse 1]
Sometimes I wonder why I feel alone
Sometimes I'm stuck inside my bed at home
Contemplating my existence
If I'm really here or if I'm just an instance
In a universe that's greater than me, older than me
The word of God or the fact that He's mystery
None of it's clear to me
So I'm just gonna sit here and weep
'Til I build with grief
My head burns from the thought of it all
My heart yearns for the fate of my soul
My mind's alert, yet my body's stone
And I can't find a worth of my lifelong
So tell me you're really real
Then why the hell do I have this feel?
Why do we suffer?
Why do we die?
How do I know if we're really alive?

[Chorus]
It's like I'm stuck behind a TV screen
And no one else can understand what I mean
I pray to God if He can feel me
And tell me if I'm worth it, worth it
If my soul is really worth it, worth it, worth it

[Verse 2]
Do you remember last May
When I would sit in the day
Crying to myself, trying to pray?
I was lost in a [?]
And, honestly, that part I questioned hasn't left
It's still inside of me
I wondered, where were you?
If you had something to do
Or, if you left us long ago, we weren't given a clue
But I guessed that, that's fine
In the end, my thoughts left me with a better mind
I had to cope with my derealization
But came through with a new realization
I gotta live in the now, don't question the matter
If I think way too much, it only makes me even sadder
So time to focus on living life
I'm stop focusing on what even is paradise
'Cause, God damn it, I'm alive!
Yeah, I'm alive

[Chorus]
It's like I'm stuck behind a TV screen
And no one else can understand what I mean
I pray to God if He can feel me
And tell me if I'm worth it, worth it
If my soul is really worth it, worth it, worth it