The Only Stars I Can See Are Planes

[Verse 1: cxllym]
Recently I have been fronting
Hiding behind smiles I’ve been busting
Need someone to come in and trust me and love me
And save me from all of this cutting
And all the pill munching
I can’t feel nothing
Im nothing, please help me feel like I’m something
In this world thats overruled by all of this judging
I can’t put a finger on what it is that I’m becoming
But it really fucking disgusts me

[Bridge]
Im sinking lower and lower
I need to get up and get sober
Im addicted, diminished
These silly things keep me from telling myself that I’m actually worth it
My self esteem has been torn open
And I’m starting to think that its me who deserves this
I know I’m imperfect
But it hurts that you worded your words like that
And now I’ve learned that there isn’t a person that confirms
That I do not deserve this

[Verse 2: cxllym]
Im floating in an ocean of emotion
That pushes me through the days I keep on hoping
That somebody will just notice
That I have been broken open
My mind has now been exploded
And I keep on droning saying that I am not eroded
In this big wide world full of snakes and deniers
I try to convince myself that you are some kind of a little beautiful liar
Cause when I look into your eyes all my sadness expires
All this pressure put upon me
Leaves me crying by myself in the back of my room
In my tomb
In my crypt thats my bed
Where I think about what I could have been like if I was with you