THE MILL

"Two do the job, the third one is witness
Don't shoot the guards no need for guns
Check this."
"Don't go across the longer road's safer
Watch as the bolt's trajectory wavers"

Learn in by heart
Now the hardest part comes when
Staggering doubt paralyzes you
And then
You fall apart like a house of cards
Might as
Well disregard it as a cursory mantra

Ah... My head feels heavy once again
I wish I could dissolve myself in this rusty air
It's getting harder
To act like I don't really care
I'm sorry but these earnest words of yours are just too much to bear

Я вижу тебя, дымка стелется над
Розовой дугой предрассветного
Далекого, как в детстве, свечения
И с наших рук земля осыпается, черная земля осыпается
Обернутая в синее полотно, она идет за мной бледным призраком
Туманы над водою - дымка предрассветная стелется
Седым покровом ровным над тихою, над тихою рекою

I'll draw a circle in the sand
Drive myself around the bend
In a desperate attempt to hold onto your battered hand

Rocked to sleep beneath the snow
She is bathed in youthful glow
"Strong enough to let it go," he says
But, darling, I don't know

This isn't my first time sinking lower than the low
How hard can it be to never let it overflow
Oh, I've gotten used to being haunted long ago
All I need to hear is a simple
"hello"

Right through the arc of breaking dawn
Though the haze and through the maw
Of the grinder
I won't find her
But I'll guide you through them all

No more circles left to find
In the windmills of this mind
Rest your members
Now, remember, dear
You've always been too kind

Oh it's nothing new, the visionless leading the blind
It's easy to say, "why don't you leave it all behind"
And this moral compass is forever misaligned
All I need to hear is that you'll be there
By my side
But you can never know that
"Too strong to die."
Or was that me again?
I know that
There has to be some hope that's
Just out of sight

I won't let myself lose it again
And now my only hope is that one day you'll understand
I'll wrap the chain
'Round my heart and her hammering neck
And save what's left, though I know that
One day this weight will come to break my back

Once again we were left in the dust
Self-hating ones like us crack when we betray someone's trust
So if you must
Shield your heart with these layers of rust
The sun will rise
Until then I'll
Be waiting for you on the other side