The Compassion of Christ

But as I whore in the dark / there's Someone gently knocking on the door of my heart / but to open up is not an option never / remember that valve is closed off forever / (who is it?) it's the King of love / the Blessed Savior / He came to dig deep like an excavator / to take your shame / sin stains and pain / and remain as your life source / your Respirator / but I've never allowed any in before / this devilish child has many sins and sores / so perhaps it's a mistake Lord / He said (no actually you're exactly who I came for) / but I spent my life violently despising Thee / yet Your reply is You delight in me? / stay away from this awful ruined soul / (but that's when you called me beautiful) / I tried to just shun Him but I'm tired of running / and the Messiah really desires to come in / and He's pursued me in this pit that I'm trapped in / and I can no longer resist His compassion / I'm made in Your image but I need restored / I see Your heart of mercy beaming forth / so I invite You Christ come into this place / pour Your currents of mercy / rivers of grace / I thought this heart was unredeemable / too rotten / dark / the scum's uncleanable / the depths of its death I deemed unreachable / and You're the only One who wants to clean my soul / You rightly expose the depths of my hardness / Your light has shown how wretched my heart is / but not to condemn me / to wash and then cleanse me / and reign in life over the death and the darkness / You didn't expose me to leave me feeling dirty / but to heal and purge me and reveal Your mercy / that it's infinitely greater than my sin / and Your healing's greater than my pain that's within / I should be left to be doomed to the tomb / but I'm rescued from death through my union with You / rose from the dead / You broke the head of Satan / now I'm a part of your global restoration / I had no rest like an insomniac / now cause of Your righteousness Your Father's glad / and my wife and kids You brought them back / and restored my relationships with mom and dad / You take pleasure in renewing the ruin / united to Christ now I truly am human / so my heart is alive to love and to praise and to give and encourage those enslaved to their pain and their sin / hoisted on the Roman tree in blackness / Your voice it groaned for me to have this / You rose to free us captives and ravish / how You're now rejoicing over me in gladness / Jesus I give You every pain in my soul / here's my sexuality I thought Satan had stole / and here's my sin that You paid as a whole / here's the throne of my heart / please reign in control /